Will this end my casino career?

I spent most of yesterday sitting at home playing TLOU. As I sat there, game after game, the smell of my mom's dried mushrooms started getting to me. It annoyed me because our house is already a mess, hoarded with junk we do not need. And now she puts mushrooms out to dry, and when it's dark, she brings them back in, and the smell infiltrates the lounge room, rendering it like a market place.

The home should not smell like a market place.

So the more I played, the more I realised that I needed to move out. I needed to save money for a home. I am 32 and have really wasted all my money.

Today, with Julie in the back of my mind, I realised I had another friend (in addition to Will Ho) who was a bartender - Saliva. So I messaged him on fb, and after a bit of introductory chat, I told him straight up to keep an eye out for positions. His response was much more encouraging than Will Ho's - he said although he had left the industry, he still had contacts and asked me to send her resume through.

That alone made me want to immediately go to the casino after work to tell her. But I resisted. I couldn't.

You see, somewhere over the weekend, I decided it might be best if I skip a week seeing her. I think I have become too predictable available. She didn't even seem surprised when she saw me on Friday. I think maybe skip a week, and make her miss you. Seeing her on consecutive days has made me realise that an important part of courtship is missing someone. Seeing them too often too early on makes things less exciting. I want to make her wonder about me. If she expects me there on Thursday, then not seeing me should make her wonder.

My plan is to go to the gym and work out heaps over the next week or two, so I can go back to see her with a leaner body. Let's hope I'm able to stick to the plan.

This should also keep me away from gambling, but not sure if the urges will get me there after she finishes her shift.

I have also come up with a plan in my head - maybe I can sit at her table and play, and because there will probably be another player or her supervisor around, I can say "you know that girl I told you about last week who was looking for a bartending job?" and start from there, and make jokes like "yeah but she makes a lot of mistakes and isn't good at maths...but she is attractive though" :)

Maybe...

That's my fantasy anyway.

But I fugure if this all works out and she does change jobs (even if we don't hook up), then I most probably shouldn't go back to the casino. Who knows if they will find out I was poaching her? I don't want to take that risk.

So maybe this will end my casino career?

Another thing today is that my confidence is suddenly back up. You know why? My brain has brought back the memory of Friday when I was sitting at the table during her break, I heard her supervisor say "oh Julie why didn't you take your 20 minutes?" which meant she came back early from her break. Knowing the lazy person she is, always wanting to go on her break (in fact, they all do), why did she come back early? Was it because she thought I'd change to her table?