"We'll see"?
Had basketball yesterday for the usual three hours, was a bit annoying because it was so windy. After that I went home, had a shower and got ready to meet Victoria. I even gave the car a quick wash too, which was lucky because I didn't realise how dirty it was. My dad had scratched the front right wheel area a couple of weeks ago and has now done a real bad paint job on it. Much annoyed.
I was planning to go to the park and feed some ducks with her, so grabbed a used loaf of bread with me into the car, as well as the pen I had engraved for her. I drove over to her place and was about 10 minutes late, but she didn't call to hurry me up or anything. I guess she trusts that I'll turn up.
I arrived and called her. Took a bit for her to pick up but when she did, she said she was coming. She came out in either the same or similar coat she wore last time, but this time no heels. I wonder if it was because of last time me saying I noticed she was wearing heels and she said sorry. She gave me a bag of o-deng as I had previously half jokingly asked for it.
As we drove off, I asked if she ever had problems finding parking on her street as it seemed quite packed but she said no. I asked her about her apartment hunting and she said she went to look at one but it was too old. She told me that she was actually buying, whereas I thought she would be renting. She also mentioned later that her mum would come over to inspect the apartment first.
I asked her if she had any suggestions as to where to go, and as expected she said no, so I suggested Fox Studios and she said ok. I figured we could go feed the ducks after eating.
She said something about me going to the bar in 2-3 years time and I corrected her saying I was going next May. Not sure where she got the idea that it would be 2-3 years, although I said that would've been ideal, but I had already told her that they had only extended my exam currency until May.
She asked me if she looked tired and I said a bit. She said she didn't get much sleep and just stayed up watching Korean dramas. I asked her why she couldn't sleep and she said something about missing the usual time that she sleeps.
She said she had a dream but couldn't remember it. I told her I had a nightmare where I was in a field of grass with big snakes popping up. She used a Korean app on her phone to find the meaning of it and told me that it meant there would be much wealth waiting for me as I start a new venture or business. I don't think it could've been that coincidental, so I think she was probably making it up.
She also told me that she had plans to go to the jail with this barrister, but somehow it got rescheduled to 9am yesterday and she couldn't go. I looked the guy up later and recognised him as someone I'd seen around in court. Immediately my jealousy began to rise.
She mentioned some Asian girl's name who is also a recent barrister in crime, and I said I had heard of her as someone suggested hooking me up with her before. She said she could introduce us. I thought "what the hell? Is this another test?" and I said no, then she said the girl had a partner anyway.
We drove to Fox Studios and I parked on the street near the basketball courts. I screwed up the parking and had to do multiple twists and turns. I said I screwed it up and she said I didn't, and that it was a tight spot. Lol it totally wasn't - there wasn't even a car behind me! When we walked into the grounds, again she was indecisive as to which restaurant, so I just chose the one closest to us, being a pizza bar. She suggested we share, and I said we could pick one entree and one main to share, and she said ok. She had pointed to a main when I suggested she pick the entree, so she said ok, picked the entree, then I asked what she was pointing to earlier and she said I was making her pick everything. Guess I need to make all the decisions from now on.
We talked about my lunch with Karen and the tips she gave me. I think I didn't give her anything new, and that anything she didn't already know she probably wasn't going to take on anyway.
I gave her the pen and she liked it. She said she didn't get me anything and I jokingly said "totally unacceptable". She noticed how it was engraved and we joked about how people would ask about the name if I had put "Charpanda".
We talked about my hear last Monday, and also about the story in the news of how an Australian couple desserted their baby born via a surrogate mother in Thailand just because the baby had down syndrome. I also told her about Thai's unfortunate and hard decision of choosing to abort a baby with down syndrome.
She didn't eat much, she had like her half of the bruschetta and a bit of the risotto, then asked me to have the rest. I noticed she didn't even swap food with me, although I gave her a mushroom. Maybe it was because we were having the same thing.
She talked about the flower market nearby and I said we could check it out afterwards. Then later she commented on how they seemed to be packing up so I said we'd hurry, and I quickly ate the rest of the risotto. She said she'd pay for this meal as I got the last one. I countered with her having paid for the coffee last time and how she wouldn't have any income for the next six months due to the bar. I grabbed the bill when it was brought over and paid for it.
We then headed over to the flower market, and she went to a stall selling nuts. She seemed really interested, and asked me if I wanted any and I said no. She bought a pack and then asked me what I wanted, so I just pointed to whatever the guy was trying to sell us at the time and she paid for it. I wondered if she really wanted them or if she just wanted to do something in return for the lunch.
We walked through the closing market briefly and then headed out. She had said earlier that she wanted to go to Bondi to check out the laptops and printers, and I said ok. I asked if she wanted to go for a walk through the park first to feed the ducks, and she said it was cold. She said she normally does enjoy a walk in the park though. Well, there goes my plan of feeding the ducks.
As we walked back to my car, she pointed out the car park, and I said I didn't like to pay for parking. Maybe that was a mistake. I was trying to initiate some sort of contact to hold her hand. We stood at the traffic lights and I looked into her face. I asked if she had freckles and she said yes. I asked if she tried to cover it up and she said no. Hmmm.
After we crossed the road, I pointed out the courts that I play at on Saturday mornings. We walked through the path overshadowed by giant trees, and I wanted to try something but she had both hands in her pockets. I pulled out my hand and said "it's really cold" and she didn't say anything. I tried it moments later and she told me to put my hand back in my pocket. Hmmm.
As we neared my car, she told me that she remembered things about my family, saying I had one sister, who was older, and by two years. I had to correct her on the last bit. When we got into my car she gave me the bag of nuts she bought and put it into the o-deng bag. I said she didn't have to and we struggled for a bit as I pulled it out and gave it back to her.
We drove to the shopping centre in Bondi, and on the way she said I seemed to know the roads around her. I half joked that "I'd picked her up too many times" and she just had a wry smile on her face.
Once we got there, we walked to JB and had a look at some Macs and printers. She was trying to decide between the Pro and Air, and then said she would probably use her home one. I asked if there was anything else she wanted to check out and she said no. To try to prolong things, I suggested we go to David Jones as I wanted to check out some ties.
She agreed and we walked there. On the way she asked if she looked tired. I said she looked amazing. She brushed it off but I continued.
"You look stunning."
"You look spectacular."
She said "are you still going?"
"You look magnificent."
When we went to DJ's I got us onto the wrong floor and ended up at an ice cream cart. She said she wanted some, and tasted some samples before settling on a nugat one. I got a mango one and paid for it even though she offered. She asked me to try some of hers, and I tried to offer her some of mine on my stick but she said she'd scoop it out with her own. Hmmm.
We checked out some ties, but I didn't see any I liked. I tried to get from her some encouragement, but she said she didn't know much about ties, though she did suggest a purple one that wasn't too bright.
After that we went back to my car and I drove her home. I knew things were coming to an end and I had failed in that I couldn't make a move. I felt so sad and depressed, probably moreso than I should've been had I not put this expectation up on myself. She thanked me for taking her to JB and I said "it's ok, I like spending time with you". I asked if she wanted to meet next week and she said "we'll see".
Going by my usual rule of "anything other than a yes is a no", that did not look good. Or maybe I was just being too negative. She got out of the car, waved goodbye and headed to her front door. I stayed and just before she went in, she looked back and waved at me again.
I immediately felt a wave of insecurity come over me and when I got home, I checked my old phone. No new messages from Jin. I went on Wechat and started looking for a punt. I probably would've gone had I found one.
I was planning to go to the park and feed some ducks with her, so grabbed a used loaf of bread with me into the car, as well as the pen I had engraved for her. I drove over to her place and was about 10 minutes late, but she didn't call to hurry me up or anything. I guess she trusts that I'll turn up.
I arrived and called her. Took a bit for her to pick up but when she did, she said she was coming. She came out in either the same or similar coat she wore last time, but this time no heels. I wonder if it was because of last time me saying I noticed she was wearing heels and she said sorry. She gave me a bag of o-deng as I had previously half jokingly asked for it.
As we drove off, I asked if she ever had problems finding parking on her street as it seemed quite packed but she said no. I asked her about her apartment hunting and she said she went to look at one but it was too old. She told me that she was actually buying, whereas I thought she would be renting. She also mentioned later that her mum would come over to inspect the apartment first.
I asked her if she had any suggestions as to where to go, and as expected she said no, so I suggested Fox Studios and she said ok. I figured we could go feed the ducks after eating.
She said something about me going to the bar in 2-3 years time and I corrected her saying I was going next May. Not sure where she got the idea that it would be 2-3 years, although I said that would've been ideal, but I had already told her that they had only extended my exam currency until May.
She asked me if she looked tired and I said a bit. She said she didn't get much sleep and just stayed up watching Korean dramas. I asked her why she couldn't sleep and she said something about missing the usual time that she sleeps.
She said she had a dream but couldn't remember it. I told her I had a nightmare where I was in a field of grass with big snakes popping up. She used a Korean app on her phone to find the meaning of it and told me that it meant there would be much wealth waiting for me as I start a new venture or business. I don't think it could've been that coincidental, so I think she was probably making it up.
She also told me that she had plans to go to the jail with this barrister, but somehow it got rescheduled to 9am yesterday and she couldn't go. I looked the guy up later and recognised him as someone I'd seen around in court. Immediately my jealousy began to rise.
She mentioned some Asian girl's name who is also a recent barrister in crime, and I said I had heard of her as someone suggested hooking me up with her before. She said she could introduce us. I thought "what the hell? Is this another test?" and I said no, then she said the girl had a partner anyway.
We drove to Fox Studios and I parked on the street near the basketball courts. I screwed up the parking and had to do multiple twists and turns. I said I screwed it up and she said I didn't, and that it was a tight spot. Lol it totally wasn't - there wasn't even a car behind me! When we walked into the grounds, again she was indecisive as to which restaurant, so I just chose the one closest to us, being a pizza bar. She suggested we share, and I said we could pick one entree and one main to share, and she said ok. She had pointed to a main when I suggested she pick the entree, so she said ok, picked the entree, then I asked what she was pointing to earlier and she said I was making her pick everything. Guess I need to make all the decisions from now on.
We talked about my lunch with Karen and the tips she gave me. I think I didn't give her anything new, and that anything she didn't already know she probably wasn't going to take on anyway.
I gave her the pen and she liked it. She said she didn't get me anything and I jokingly said "totally unacceptable". She noticed how it was engraved and we joked about how people would ask about the name if I had put "Charpanda".
We talked about my hear last Monday, and also about the story in the news of how an Australian couple desserted their baby born via a surrogate mother in Thailand just because the baby had down syndrome. I also told her about Thai's unfortunate and hard decision of choosing to abort a baby with down syndrome.
She didn't eat much, she had like her half of the bruschetta and a bit of the risotto, then asked me to have the rest. I noticed she didn't even swap food with me, although I gave her a mushroom. Maybe it was because we were having the same thing.
She talked about the flower market nearby and I said we could check it out afterwards. Then later she commented on how they seemed to be packing up so I said we'd hurry, and I quickly ate the rest of the risotto. She said she'd pay for this meal as I got the last one. I countered with her having paid for the coffee last time and how she wouldn't have any income for the next six months due to the bar. I grabbed the bill when it was brought over and paid for it.
We then headed over to the flower market, and she went to a stall selling nuts. She seemed really interested, and asked me if I wanted any and I said no. She bought a pack and then asked me what I wanted, so I just pointed to whatever the guy was trying to sell us at the time and she paid for it. I wondered if she really wanted them or if she just wanted to do something in return for the lunch.
We walked through the closing market briefly and then headed out. She had said earlier that she wanted to go to Bondi to check out the laptops and printers, and I said ok. I asked if she wanted to go for a walk through the park first to feed the ducks, and she said it was cold. She said she normally does enjoy a walk in the park though. Well, there goes my plan of feeding the ducks.
As we walked back to my car, she pointed out the car park, and I said I didn't like to pay for parking. Maybe that was a mistake. I was trying to initiate some sort of contact to hold her hand. We stood at the traffic lights and I looked into her face. I asked if she had freckles and she said yes. I asked if she tried to cover it up and she said no. Hmmm.
After we crossed the road, I pointed out the courts that I play at on Saturday mornings. We walked through the path overshadowed by giant trees, and I wanted to try something but she had both hands in her pockets. I pulled out my hand and said "it's really cold" and she didn't say anything. I tried it moments later and she told me to put my hand back in my pocket. Hmmm.
As we neared my car, she told me that she remembered things about my family, saying I had one sister, who was older, and by two years. I had to correct her on the last bit. When we got into my car she gave me the bag of nuts she bought and put it into the o-deng bag. I said she didn't have to and we struggled for a bit as I pulled it out and gave it back to her.
We drove to the shopping centre in Bondi, and on the way she said I seemed to know the roads around her. I half joked that "I'd picked her up too many times" and she just had a wry smile on her face.
Once we got there, we walked to JB and had a look at some Macs and printers. She was trying to decide between the Pro and Air, and then said she would probably use her home one. I asked if there was anything else she wanted to check out and she said no. To try to prolong things, I suggested we go to David Jones as I wanted to check out some ties.
She agreed and we walked there. On the way she asked if she looked tired. I said she looked amazing. She brushed it off but I continued.
"You look stunning."
"You look spectacular."
She said "are you still going?"
"You look magnificent."
When we went to DJ's I got us onto the wrong floor and ended up at an ice cream cart. She said she wanted some, and tasted some samples before settling on a nugat one. I got a mango one and paid for it even though she offered. She asked me to try some of hers, and I tried to offer her some of mine on my stick but she said she'd scoop it out with her own. Hmmm.
We checked out some ties, but I didn't see any I liked. I tried to get from her some encouragement, but she said she didn't know much about ties, though she did suggest a purple one that wasn't too bright.
After that we went back to my car and I drove her home. I knew things were coming to an end and I had failed in that I couldn't make a move. I felt so sad and depressed, probably moreso than I should've been had I not put this expectation up on myself. She thanked me for taking her to JB and I said "it's ok, I like spending time with you". I asked if she wanted to meet next week and she said "we'll see".
Going by my usual rule of "anything other than a yes is a no", that did not look good. Or maybe I was just being too negative. She got out of the car, waved goodbye and headed to her front door. I stayed and just before she went in, she looked back and waved at me again.
I immediately felt a wave of insecurity come over me and when I got home, I checked my old phone. No new messages from Jin. I went on Wechat and started looking for a punt. I probably would've gone had I found one.
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