Happy then sad day at work
So I had another hearing today. The second in two weeks.
The first witness went ok, mainly because she cooperated and was fairly forthcoming. Kym was pretty happy, and so was I. It made me feel like I did a good job.
I wasn't expecting the first witness to be so cooperative, I had actually prepared on the assumption that she'd deny everything. And so, during the break between the first and second witness, I actually thought the second witness would do the same. Maybe I let my guard down.
The second witness tried to deny everything, was extremely vague, and made no effort at all as he kept repeating "I can't recall". The thing was, we had nothing to counter that. I actually lost my temper a bit and repeated a question three times until it got objected to because I felt he wasn't answering my question.
Afterwards, I felt so shit. I felt like I did a shit job, mainly because I didn't get what I wanted. I went to see Mob, but she was on the phone. I thought I heard her say "the worst..."
Was she saying that was the worst cross-examination she had ever seen?
I went to see her later and asked if she saw it and she said no, however she knew what the guy said was his occupation. Hmmm.
I wanted to talk to Kym about it but he seemed busy. I was wondering if everyone thought I did a shit job but just didn't say anything. I was tired, and I was going crazy. I wanted to talk to someone but didn't have anyone. I thought, if I really did a shit job, I'd like someone to say something to me, so I know I need to improve.
Or was it all my insecurity?
Thing was, before it started, I had actually told people that if the guy denied things, we had nothing to prove otherwise. I spoke to Kym at the end of the day and he didn't seem to have a problem with the way it went, making it sound normal for someone to come in and lie to our faces.
I just felt truly horrible. Or was it a case of where there was nothing I could do about it anyway?
I was so upset, it motivated me to go to the gym after work, where I did the same workout I did on Friday, causing a lot of sweat (unlike my usual laid back sessions).
The first witness went ok, mainly because she cooperated and was fairly forthcoming. Kym was pretty happy, and so was I. It made me feel like I did a good job.
I wasn't expecting the first witness to be so cooperative, I had actually prepared on the assumption that she'd deny everything. And so, during the break between the first and second witness, I actually thought the second witness would do the same. Maybe I let my guard down.
The second witness tried to deny everything, was extremely vague, and made no effort at all as he kept repeating "I can't recall". The thing was, we had nothing to counter that. I actually lost my temper a bit and repeated a question three times until it got objected to because I felt he wasn't answering my question.
Afterwards, I felt so shit. I felt like I did a shit job, mainly because I didn't get what I wanted. I went to see Mob, but she was on the phone. I thought I heard her say "the worst..."
Was she saying that was the worst cross-examination she had ever seen?
I went to see her later and asked if she saw it and she said no, however she knew what the guy said was his occupation. Hmmm.
I wanted to talk to Kym about it but he seemed busy. I was wondering if everyone thought I did a shit job but just didn't say anything. I was tired, and I was going crazy. I wanted to talk to someone but didn't have anyone. I thought, if I really did a shit job, I'd like someone to say something to me, so I know I need to improve.
Or was it all my insecurity?
Thing was, before it started, I had actually told people that if the guy denied things, we had nothing to prove otherwise. I spoke to Kym at the end of the day and he didn't seem to have a problem with the way it went, making it sound normal for someone to come in and lie to our faces.
I just felt truly horrible. Or was it a case of where there was nothing I could do about it anyway?
I was so upset, it motivated me to go to the gym after work, where I did the same workout I did on Friday, causing a lot of sweat (unlike my usual laid back sessions).
posted by toey | 22:02
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