The impact...

I woke up at 3am.

Checked my phone and went back to sleep.

I woke up at 4am.

Checked my phone. Sent some angry messages to Sung Yeon for not replying to me. I knew I was taking my anger out on her. My anger at being ignored. My anger that girls feel they can just do the 'fade' and hope the guy quietly goes away.

I thought about sending Victoria a message to say I couldn't sleep. I thought about sending her a message lying to say I was in hospital to draw sympathy.

I didn't.

I called Jin. With a blocked number. No answer.

I haven't had much sleep, all because of this. Why didn't she call me back?