Feeling sad... (Victoria)
I had it all planned out - I would call her after work tonight with a fake Indian accent, and say she won a bowling game tomorrow as a prize in the Ms Fed Court competition. My friends say I do the accent pretty well, so I could pull it off.
Thing is, she had a lecture at 5:30pm - 7:30pm tonight so I had to call after that, but not too late as to be intrusive (like 10pm). I stayed at work until 6:30pm and then went to the gym, but only did the bike as everything else was taken (this is the first time in a while I've tried to return to Park St gym, and nothing has changed). I caught the bus home and it was about 7:30pm. I went to my garage to check my other phone, and nothing from Jin - not that I care.
I then took a walk around the block to kill some time, and decided to walk along Malay's street where it would be quieter for a phone call. I called her and it was switched off. I called her again a few minutes later and there was one ring before it went to her voice mail. Then I heard a voice call out from across the street. I thought it was some guy calling for his dog, but then I took a second look and it was Malay! We chatted a bit as he was on his way to work (I had to make up an excuse as to why I was walking there), and I continued walking.
Then she called. But I couldn't answer it, as it wouldn't fit into the Indian accent ploy. So I let it die. By now it was raining a bit, so I decided to call her when I got back to my garage. She called again, but I couldn't answer. When I got into my garage, I tried to call her but the phone was a bit stuffed as it had gotten a little bit wet, causing the touch screen to lose a bit of sensitivity, so I had to switch it off then back on.
Surprisingly the phone worked as normal, so I called and she picked up. I began in my Indian accent "oh hello, can I speak to [her full name] please?" and she laughed and said "hi [insert name here]".
She said she knew it was me, and she said I sounded like Apu from the Simpsons. She said she was sorry for missing my call earlier, she said she had just finished her lecture. I said I knew she would be going and asked her how it was. She said it was good, and that it was by the same person as last time. I said she may have seen my colleague there and she asked me how that went so I told her.
I then said, "anyway, reason I called was to see if you were free for bowling tomorrow" and she was like "oh yeah" as if it jogged her memory. She then said she wanted to study with a friend (she said a female name but can't remember) on Evidence, and then she would study Ethics on Saturday with Albert. She said she still wasn't feeling confident about the exams two weeks away.
Albert eh? That guy still in the picture? I ain't worried. I ain't worried.
I was disappointed by her bowling response, and I couldn't help but let it come through. She must've picked up on it, because she thanked me for asking, and I just went "mmm".
She asked me if I'd be going to study on Sunday and I said yes. She said she might be going. I wasn't too sure what she meant so asked her what she meant. She said her study group is on Sunday, but something because it was a long weekend, she might come study with me on Sunday. I was pretty disappointed still about the bowling, so just said if she decides to come then to message me, then I ended the conversation.
I'm feeling pretty sad right now. You know what makes me upset? The fact that she has now expressed eagerness at going on TWO occasions and then rejected me when I tried to lock it down. Like, don't give me false hope in the first place.
But I wonder if she just wants to defer anything happening until after the exams? Am I being unreasonable to try to have something happen before the exams?
Thing is, she had a lecture at 5:30pm - 7:30pm tonight so I had to call after that, but not too late as to be intrusive (like 10pm). I stayed at work until 6:30pm and then went to the gym, but only did the bike as everything else was taken (this is the first time in a while I've tried to return to Park St gym, and nothing has changed). I caught the bus home and it was about 7:30pm. I went to my garage to check my other phone, and nothing from Jin - not that I care.
I then took a walk around the block to kill some time, and decided to walk along Malay's street where it would be quieter for a phone call. I called her and it was switched off. I called her again a few minutes later and there was one ring before it went to her voice mail. Then I heard a voice call out from across the street. I thought it was some guy calling for his dog, but then I took a second look and it was Malay! We chatted a bit as he was on his way to work (I had to make up an excuse as to why I was walking there), and I continued walking.
Then she called. But I couldn't answer it, as it wouldn't fit into the Indian accent ploy. So I let it die. By now it was raining a bit, so I decided to call her when I got back to my garage. She called again, but I couldn't answer. When I got into my garage, I tried to call her but the phone was a bit stuffed as it had gotten a little bit wet, causing the touch screen to lose a bit of sensitivity, so I had to switch it off then back on.
Surprisingly the phone worked as normal, so I called and she picked up. I began in my Indian accent "oh hello, can I speak to [her full name] please?" and she laughed and said "hi [insert name here]".
She said she knew it was me, and she said I sounded like Apu from the Simpsons. She said she was sorry for missing my call earlier, she said she had just finished her lecture. I said I knew she would be going and asked her how it was. She said it was good, and that it was by the same person as last time. I said she may have seen my colleague there and she asked me how that went so I told her.
I then said, "anyway, reason I called was to see if you were free for bowling tomorrow" and she was like "oh yeah" as if it jogged her memory. She then said she wanted to study with a friend (she said a female name but can't remember) on Evidence, and then she would study Ethics on Saturday with Albert. She said she still wasn't feeling confident about the exams two weeks away.
Albert eh? That guy still in the picture? I ain't worried. I ain't worried.
I was disappointed by her bowling response, and I couldn't help but let it come through. She must've picked up on it, because she thanked me for asking, and I just went "mmm".
She asked me if I'd be going to study on Sunday and I said yes. She said she might be going. I wasn't too sure what she meant so asked her what she meant. She said her study group is on Sunday, but something because it was a long weekend, she might come study with me on Sunday. I was pretty disappointed still about the bowling, so just said if she decides to come then to message me, then I ended the conversation.
I'm feeling pretty sad right now. You know what makes me upset? The fact that she has now expressed eagerness at going on TWO occasions and then rejected me when I tried to lock it down. Like, don't give me false hope in the first place.
But I wonder if she just wants to defer anything happening until after the exams? Am I being unreasonable to try to have something happen before the exams?
posted by toey | 20:50
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