I was free...

Before I got the Naby message, I felt like I was finally free...I had broken away from gambling, and I was finally pursuing a 'normal' life by trying to find a girlfriend. I was looking forward to meeting girls through online dating and taking them to dinner. I just felt like I was normal again. I had my finances to look forward to, knowing I could save a substantial amount each pay cheque.

But now, since she ignored my last message, it's been bugging me bad. I keep wondering why she did it. I keep having to fight myself not to message her. I'm telling myself to see her next fortnight when I get paid, instead of this fortnight, because I want to buy a nice new wallet. Now that it's possible that I might be seeing her on a regular basis, my financial forecast is gloomy.

I feel trapped again.