The plan to ask out Jenny/Emily
On the train to work.
DY finished her closing yesterday, and I have to say, it was pretty damn good. The only thing that went against her was thefact that she went second last, because I felt that, as each team takes their turn, the effect of their address loses a bit of value each time because, as true as it is, the repetition makes the jury cynical. I reckon DY must have the best balance between all baristas. She has the smarts of RB, the courtesy of CW, the aggressiveness of DD, and the pleasantness of GS.
Went to morning tea coffee with GS, had a bit of a chat about his cycling and my surgery. For lunch I ate my packed lunch in the office, then went out to the shopping centre to get an apple.
At the end of the day, most people went for drinks to celebrate DY's finish, but I declined because I wasn't in a very social mood. On my way out I quickly pushed open Twish's door to say bye, and she looked up surprised to say hi, only to realise I was saying bye and then she said bye.
I went home and bummed around on the net a bit before going to the gym later in the night. I did my cycling first this time because the stretch area was packed. It wasn't as hard as I had anticipated. This time, what I did was increase my rpm by five every half a kilometre, which not only made it fun, but also quicker. I ended up doing my 8km in about 23 and a half minutes.
This morning, I felt that my mom was in her paranoia mood a bit today, chiding me for being selfish (again). She wondered aloud how she would pay her mobile phone bill if dad wasn't working, and I casually said "then don't use one". She then criticised me for saying that instead of suggesting that I would pay for it, and also saying that I wouldn't do it for my own phone.
When did I say I wouldn't do it for my own phone??? I had actually given thought to cutting my phone off if I didn't find a job, because my contract is up anyway.
And then she accused me of wanting to take the house away from her, and I asked her when did I ever try to do that. She cited an example I brought up long ago when I suggested that if we ever moved, the new house would have to be in either my name or my sister's name, to take advantage of the government's $15,000 grant. She saw that as an attempt by me to take her house.
Sometimes I wonder how much longer I can put up with all this. Sometimes I wonder what effect all this has had on my life.
I was about to have a go at her, basically wanting to point out that her entire situation was created by her due to her unwillingness to learn anything. Whenever she is prompted to learn, she will say "oh no, that's somebody else's job, I just sit and relax", which was apparently a promise dad made to her at the time of marriage. I decided to leave her in her ignorance.
If she is going to accuse me of being selfish, I want her to question why I'm selfish. Have a look at the cause.
For the past few days I have been unable to stop thinking about Emily/Jenny. I keep trying to think of a way to come up with the money to see her, but, maths being maths, no matter how you twist and turn, the bottom line remains the same. I keep telling myself I will just have to wait until next month, but I fear so so much that she will disappear on me again.
It doesn't help that today is apparently the Chinese Valentine's Day.
Surely if she was there last week, she'd be there next week right? It's just a couple of weeks apart.
My plan is to ask her out, casually, and if she says no then it's no, but I might keep seeing her. I keep thinking about how to ask her. Initially I was going to wait until afterwards, when I'd say "do you want to go out to dinner with me?", and take her to that place Bob, Ele, Tracy and I went to before. But lately I've been thinking about just going for a movie and dinner, and maybe we can do those toy picking machines afterwards.
DY finished her closing yesterday, and I have to say, it was pretty damn good. The only thing that went against her was thefact that she went second last, because I felt that, as each team takes their turn, the effect of their address loses a bit of value each time because, as true as it is, the repetition makes the jury cynical. I reckon DY must have the best balance between all baristas. She has the smarts of RB, the courtesy of CW, the aggressiveness of DD, and the pleasantness of GS.
Went to morning tea coffee with GS, had a bit of a chat about his cycling and my surgery. For lunch I ate my packed lunch in the office, then went out to the shopping centre to get an apple.
At the end of the day, most people went for drinks to celebrate DY's finish, but I declined because I wasn't in a very social mood. On my way out I quickly pushed open Twish's door to say bye, and she looked up surprised to say hi, only to realise I was saying bye and then she said bye.
I went home and bummed around on the net a bit before going to the gym later in the night. I did my cycling first this time because the stretch area was packed. It wasn't as hard as I had anticipated. This time, what I did was increase my rpm by five every half a kilometre, which not only made it fun, but also quicker. I ended up doing my 8km in about 23 and a half minutes.
This morning, I felt that my mom was in her paranoia mood a bit today, chiding me for being selfish (again). She wondered aloud how she would pay her mobile phone bill if dad wasn't working, and I casually said "then don't use one". She then criticised me for saying that instead of suggesting that I would pay for it, and also saying that I wouldn't do it for my own phone.
When did I say I wouldn't do it for my own phone??? I had actually given thought to cutting my phone off if I didn't find a job, because my contract is up anyway.
And then she accused me of wanting to take the house away from her, and I asked her when did I ever try to do that. She cited an example I brought up long ago when I suggested that if we ever moved, the new house would have to be in either my name or my sister's name, to take advantage of the government's $15,000 grant. She saw that as an attempt by me to take her house.
Sometimes I wonder how much longer I can put up with all this. Sometimes I wonder what effect all this has had on my life.
I was about to have a go at her, basically wanting to point out that her entire situation was created by her due to her unwillingness to learn anything. Whenever she is prompted to learn, she will say "oh no, that's somebody else's job, I just sit and relax", which was apparently a promise dad made to her at the time of marriage. I decided to leave her in her ignorance.
If she is going to accuse me of being selfish, I want her to question why I'm selfish. Have a look at the cause.
For the past few days I have been unable to stop thinking about Emily/Jenny. I keep trying to think of a way to come up with the money to see her, but, maths being maths, no matter how you twist and turn, the bottom line remains the same. I keep telling myself I will just have to wait until next month, but I fear so so much that she will disappear on me again.
It doesn't help that today is apparently the Chinese Valentine's Day.
Surely if she was there last week, she'd be there next week right? It's just a couple of weeks apart.
My plan is to ask her out, casually, and if she says no then it's no, but I might keep seeing her. I keep thinking about how to ask her. Initially I was going to wait until afterwards, when I'd say "do you want to go out to dinner with me?", and take her to that place Bob, Ele, Tracy and I went to before. But lately I've been thinking about just going for a movie and dinner, and maybe we can do those toy picking machines afterwards.
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