/Misha

I had planned to skip seeing Misha this week, mainly because of her response to me when I suggested marriage, but also to save some money and maybe create some feeling of missing me for her. I know she can be in different moods at different times, so who knows what her attitude would be like next time I saw her?

Anyway, on Friday I went to watch Spectre with Brain and Malay. We got seats in the front row but the reclining seats eased the pain of it somehow. Afterwards we went to Macca's and just talked. Ended up getting home around 2:30am.

On Saturday morning I went to bball, but it was odd because no one had created an event for it on meetup, and it was pretty cloudy. There were about eight people there and we just played four on four until it rained. I kinda liked it, as it brought back memories of high school days when we'd play in the rain.

Later on in the day I went to Chatty to check out the Footlocker there. I had pretty much decided on getting the CP3 IX for playing outdoor. I went in and managed to get the last pair in size 9.5. After that I did some light grocery shopping and then went home.

Today I went for a run and did a lap in the morning. It seemed a little harder, maybe because I had skipped a week. I then went home and played some video games, intending to do that until I had to leave for basketball. I decided to check the forum for shops, since I hadn't checked for a while, and found someone had posted saying something about Misha having returned to Korea because of the shop's change in management.

I was kinda shocked. It wasn't unusual for people to post fake information for whatever reason, but it did seem like a genuine post. They also stated that she was actually 43 years old.

I didn't know what to think, but when my parents came home, I managed to convince myself I could go buy some snacks for my cats and make it to the casino. So I went to the shopping centre near me and bought them some treats that were good for their teeth, then went out to the casino.

I told myself I didn't need to win much, maybe just $200, which would more than cover the cost of the shoes I got yesterday. Besides, I had won back around $2000 already.

I went to a table where there was a single Asian guy playing, and played cautiously with minimum bets. I didn't lose one spin and left with  a $220 gain. I walked over to baccarat where memories of Misha came over me. I watched some Chinese man play with $5000 chips for a little bit before cashing out and heading to basketball.

I texted the shop and indeed was told that Misha had gone back.

Part of me felt like crying. Part of me felt like Bond when he lost Vespa.

So this is how it feels to like someone and have them suddenly disappear.

Interestingly, I had more feelings towards Misha than Johanna.

I always thought that the last time I'd see her would be in the shop. I didn't think she'd come out for dinner, even though that was my hope. I pictured myself crying and hugging her in the shop as we saw each other for the last time. Not me saying we would play with the Doraemon 3D puzzle next time.

Whenever I make these "/" posts, there's always a bit to follow on, it's never really the end. I just hope that is the case here as well.