Big losses / Misha
On Saturday morning I had a shoe raffle to go to for the Jordan 1's powder blue, but the naughty side of my brain figured I could make it to the casino before that to win a few hundred dollars.
So I got to the casino at around 7am, won about $300 at first but KEPT PLAYING and slowly slowly lost it. Now I was getting trapped. I couldn't leave until I got my money back, and it was getting so close to the 8am raffle. I started to bet big, and luckiyl on one $500 bet, I won, leaving me with a $100 gain.
I had quickly learnt my lesson and left the table. But I had heard the supervisor talk about someone betting the maximum of $50,000 on another table, so I decided to quickly check it out. Surely not $50,000?
I went upstairs and indeed saw a guy playing $50,000. He lost.
I saw another guy betting $50,000. The first guy returned to the table and lost again.
Even though it wasn't my money, it hurt me to see that. I had spotted Summer earlier, and went to find her to tell her about it. She said she had started work at 4am and was tired. I told her about the people betting max and she seemed surprised.
Anyway, I went to the raffle and didn't get picked. I went back to the casino area as that was where I had parked to get my car. The thought of going into the casino and skipping basketball was tempting, but I forced myself to go.
I was glad I went, because I enjoyed it, getting out there and running, and it wasn't too hot.
After basketball, I went home, showered, changed, and...headed back out to the casino. I saw Summer again, and first thing I said was "I did go home, I didn't stay here the whole time", which for me, showed my guilt. Not sure if she picked it up, because she said "I've been here the whole time" implying she was exhausted.
Later, while I was at the baccarat tables, I saw Summer going up to the main desk in the area, and then it looked like she was just walking around pushing chairs into the tables. She came over and asked if I was winning and I shook my head. I was losing pretty badly, and then decided to go talk to her when she was nearby again.
I noticed her eyes were really red and told her so, and she said she got up at 2:30am to do the 4am shift. I asked if she was supposed to go home by now if she started at 4, and she said it was over time. We talked a bit about the guys betting max in the morning before I walked off.
I went to roulette and lost there too. I had $1000 left and decided to take the risk to try to get the $3000 I had already lost. I found a table where everyone was betting player, and I put a $1000 chip down on player.
The banker cards were a natural nine.
Are you fucking serious???
I had lost $4000 just like that.
Later on, I went to Saturday basketball. I played alright, and my legs felt good, I felt light (having weighed in at 69.95kg on Friday).
After basketball we all went to eat as usual. As we sat there and ate and talked and laughed, I thought about how this was normal. This was life. Not the casino. Not seeing Misha in the brothel. This was it.
I felt like I was being pulled away from the world of gambling and brothels.
On Sunday I basically bummed at home all day before driving to Ashfield to pick up Daniel for basketball. I got a bit lost driving to Marrickville so we were a bit late. I had some pretty horrible games, not hitting a single shot for the night ad having to play forward for the whole time.
After basketball we went to a Strathfield Korean restaurant to eat as he wanted to have Korean schnitzel. As soon as we went in I scoped the place out to look for someone I know, perhaps Jin.
No one.
We had a good meal, and agreed to try that spicy instant noodle with spam thing next time, as I told him I loved that.
Yesterday and today I have been pretty busy at work, which I suppose is good. Yesterday I went to the cafe for lunch, and had falafel girl make my sandwich. Maybe I'm just being too sensitive, but I got the feeling she was putting on a bit of a cold front. She did ask me if I wanted number eight, and when I asked what, she looked back at the board and said something about me not being able to see it (as there was stuff covering the number eight order).
Today I went again, but had the girl next to her serve me. I was disappointed, until she collected my money and asked "no falafel wrap today?" and I smiled and said "next time" which she repeated.
YES! SHE IS INITIATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I walked off with a big grin on my face, hehe.
After work I decided to see Misha. I had messaged the shop but got no reply, so I went home. Sure enough, on the way home the shop responded and said she was working. I made a booking and drove out there to see her, taking the Korean 'Rich Dad Poor Dad' with me.
When I saw her, she said long time no see. Even though I visited her in the shop last week and saw her at the casino on Wednesday, it really did feel like it had been a long time.
We started talking about the casino, and she said she saw me and I said I know. I was talking about Wednesday and I think she was too. However, she reckons we never made eye contact and never acknowledged each other, even though I said we looked at each other and smiled. She said something must be wrong with her mind as she couldn't remember. She said she just recalled seeing me standing at the $200 table focusing on the screen.
I made up a story about how I had won $10,000 on that night she saw me, saying there was a streak of 14 banker wins (that bit was true). Her first response was "don't lie" but I levelled it out by saying I lost $5000 on Saturday (close enough to the truth).
I asked if she had won and she said she won a few hundred then lost a few hundred. She asked me who was there with her and I said a guy friend and a girl friend, but I didn't mention that I knew Angel.
When I told her about my loss on Saturday, especially how I had lost $1000 against natural nine, we both collapsed back onto the sofa and she said she knew how that felt.
I then took out the book and gave it to her. I thought she would kinda just dismiss it since it wasn't jewelry or anything, but to my surprise she actually studied it thoroughly and asked me how I got it, and noting that the author was Japanese. She said it was an old book but a best seller. She flicked through it and found the $100 note I slipped in there. I said I was afraid she'd give the book to her friend without finding it, and she told me she has lots of books she reads.
I told her reading the book would make her smarter than 90% of the population. She said something about her not being smart, otherwise she wouldn't be in the shop. I told her not to think that way and she said she didn't believe in "think positive". I told her she needed to try, and told her the story of my high school experience which motivated me to study hard for university.
We talked more about the casino and money. I explained why I had been at the casino so early on Saturday morning (because I had to raffle for shoes) and she said there was no point in buying material things. She said heaps of girls would borrow money from the shop to buy handbags and clothes, but it was more useful to use money to make more money. I told her she would like the book.
She told me she used to shop a lot, then do a lot of drugs, and now she was gambling a lot. I said I was thirsty and asked her to get me a drink. She asked me why I didn't ask earlier, and said she'd get me a cup ramen, and I said o. When she came back she said there were no cup ramen but gave me some sort of Chinese cake and a cup of milk.
So I ate and drank that as she smoked and we talked. After I finished eating I moved to sit next to her on the bed, leaning in close and trying to be a bit flirty.
I told her about how I had added a friend on facebook and that it turned out that he had Julie as a friend. She was shocked, before questioning me as to why I had facebook. She asked if I was lonely, and I told her I used it to go to basketball games. She said she didn't use it, and customers would ask her for it, and then asked me if she should get it. I told her it wasn't a good idea if she was working in this job.
I asked her when she'd be going to the casino next and she said soon. She said she had told the shop to divide the debt, and somehow that meant she had to go soon.
She told me that if I was losing then to give her the rest of the money to play as a way to change the luck. I said she never invites me and so I am left to play by myself, and she stopped to think about it. She said if I see her next time I can go up to her, and I said I won't if she is with her friends.
She also told me not to go so often, and said not to go more than three times a week. I agreed with her, saying when I was winning I would only go three times a week, but as soon as I started to go more I would lose.
When the session ended, she held my hand as we walked down the corridor. I noticed she was holding it quite hard and even squeezing it.
So I got to the casino at around 7am, won about $300 at first but KEPT PLAYING and slowly slowly lost it. Now I was getting trapped. I couldn't leave until I got my money back, and it was getting so close to the 8am raffle. I started to bet big, and luckiyl on one $500 bet, I won, leaving me with a $100 gain.
I had quickly learnt my lesson and left the table. But I had heard the supervisor talk about someone betting the maximum of $50,000 on another table, so I decided to quickly check it out. Surely not $50,000?
I went upstairs and indeed saw a guy playing $50,000. He lost.
I saw another guy betting $50,000. The first guy returned to the table and lost again.
Even though it wasn't my money, it hurt me to see that. I had spotted Summer earlier, and went to find her to tell her about it. She said she had started work at 4am and was tired. I told her about the people betting max and she seemed surprised.
Anyway, I went to the raffle and didn't get picked. I went back to the casino area as that was where I had parked to get my car. The thought of going into the casino and skipping basketball was tempting, but I forced myself to go.
I was glad I went, because I enjoyed it, getting out there and running, and it wasn't too hot.
After basketball, I went home, showered, changed, and...headed back out to the casino. I saw Summer again, and first thing I said was "I did go home, I didn't stay here the whole time", which for me, showed my guilt. Not sure if she picked it up, because she said "I've been here the whole time" implying she was exhausted.
Later, while I was at the baccarat tables, I saw Summer going up to the main desk in the area, and then it looked like she was just walking around pushing chairs into the tables. She came over and asked if I was winning and I shook my head. I was losing pretty badly, and then decided to go talk to her when she was nearby again.
I noticed her eyes were really red and told her so, and she said she got up at 2:30am to do the 4am shift. I asked if she was supposed to go home by now if she started at 4, and she said it was over time. We talked a bit about the guys betting max in the morning before I walked off.
I went to roulette and lost there too. I had $1000 left and decided to take the risk to try to get the $3000 I had already lost. I found a table where everyone was betting player, and I put a $1000 chip down on player.
The banker cards were a natural nine.
Are you fucking serious???
I had lost $4000 just like that.
Later on, I went to Saturday basketball. I played alright, and my legs felt good, I felt light (having weighed in at 69.95kg on Friday).
After basketball we all went to eat as usual. As we sat there and ate and talked and laughed, I thought about how this was normal. This was life. Not the casino. Not seeing Misha in the brothel. This was it.
I felt like I was being pulled away from the world of gambling and brothels.
On Sunday I basically bummed at home all day before driving to Ashfield to pick up Daniel for basketball. I got a bit lost driving to Marrickville so we were a bit late. I had some pretty horrible games, not hitting a single shot for the night ad having to play forward for the whole time.
After basketball we went to a Strathfield Korean restaurant to eat as he wanted to have Korean schnitzel. As soon as we went in I scoped the place out to look for someone I know, perhaps Jin.
No one.
We had a good meal, and agreed to try that spicy instant noodle with spam thing next time, as I told him I loved that.
Yesterday and today I have been pretty busy at work, which I suppose is good. Yesterday I went to the cafe for lunch, and had falafel girl make my sandwich. Maybe I'm just being too sensitive, but I got the feeling she was putting on a bit of a cold front. She did ask me if I wanted number eight, and when I asked what, she looked back at the board and said something about me not being able to see it (as there was stuff covering the number eight order).
Today I went again, but had the girl next to her serve me. I was disappointed, until she collected my money and asked "no falafel wrap today?" and I smiled and said "next time" which she repeated.
YES! SHE IS INITIATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I walked off with a big grin on my face, hehe.
After work I decided to see Misha. I had messaged the shop but got no reply, so I went home. Sure enough, on the way home the shop responded and said she was working. I made a booking and drove out there to see her, taking the Korean 'Rich Dad Poor Dad' with me.
When I saw her, she said long time no see. Even though I visited her in the shop last week and saw her at the casino on Wednesday, it really did feel like it had been a long time.
We started talking about the casino, and she said she saw me and I said I know. I was talking about Wednesday and I think she was too. However, she reckons we never made eye contact and never acknowledged each other, even though I said we looked at each other and smiled. She said something must be wrong with her mind as she couldn't remember. She said she just recalled seeing me standing at the $200 table focusing on the screen.
I made up a story about how I had won $10,000 on that night she saw me, saying there was a streak of 14 banker wins (that bit was true). Her first response was "don't lie" but I levelled it out by saying I lost $5000 on Saturday (close enough to the truth).
I asked if she had won and she said she won a few hundred then lost a few hundred. She asked me who was there with her and I said a guy friend and a girl friend, but I didn't mention that I knew Angel.
When I told her about my loss on Saturday, especially how I had lost $1000 against natural nine, we both collapsed back onto the sofa and she said she knew how that felt.
I then took out the book and gave it to her. I thought she would kinda just dismiss it since it wasn't jewelry or anything, but to my surprise she actually studied it thoroughly and asked me how I got it, and noting that the author was Japanese. She said it was an old book but a best seller. She flicked through it and found the $100 note I slipped in there. I said I was afraid she'd give the book to her friend without finding it, and she told me she has lots of books she reads.
I told her reading the book would make her smarter than 90% of the population. She said something about her not being smart, otherwise she wouldn't be in the shop. I told her not to think that way and she said she didn't believe in "think positive". I told her she needed to try, and told her the story of my high school experience which motivated me to study hard for university.
We talked more about the casino and money. I explained why I had been at the casino so early on Saturday morning (because I had to raffle for shoes) and she said there was no point in buying material things. She said heaps of girls would borrow money from the shop to buy handbags and clothes, but it was more useful to use money to make more money. I told her she would like the book.
She told me she used to shop a lot, then do a lot of drugs, and now she was gambling a lot. I said I was thirsty and asked her to get me a drink. She asked me why I didn't ask earlier, and said she'd get me a cup ramen, and I said o. When she came back she said there were no cup ramen but gave me some sort of Chinese cake and a cup of milk.
So I ate and drank that as she smoked and we talked. After I finished eating I moved to sit next to her on the bed, leaning in close and trying to be a bit flirty.
I told her about how I had added a friend on facebook and that it turned out that he had Julie as a friend. She was shocked, before questioning me as to why I had facebook. She asked if I was lonely, and I told her I used it to go to basketball games. She said she didn't use it, and customers would ask her for it, and then asked me if she should get it. I told her it wasn't a good idea if she was working in this job.
I asked her when she'd be going to the casino next and she said soon. She said she had told the shop to divide the debt, and somehow that meant she had to go soon.
She told me that if I was losing then to give her the rest of the money to play as a way to change the luck. I said she never invites me and so I am left to play by myself, and she stopped to think about it. She said if I see her next time I can go up to her, and I said I won't if she is with her friends.
She also told me not to go so often, and said not to go more than three times a week. I agreed with her, saying when I was winning I would only go three times a week, but as soon as I started to go more I would lose.
When the session ended, she held my hand as we walked down the corridor. I noticed she was holding it quite hard and even squeezing it.
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