A little bit more with falafel girl...

Yesterday when I went down to the cafe for lunch, I spotted falafel girl standing at the counter, head turned around talking to someone she worked with. I pretended to go to the hot food bar first to check out what was there, but when I went back to the sandwich area she was gone. I think she walked into the kitchen.

Some other girl made my sandwich and I kept looking around for her.

Had she seen me and decided to avoid me?

That was my thought for the rest of the day.

I didn't realise how bad it had gotten into my head until this morning, when I remembered I had a dream last night that I was at the sandwich bar, and she was reaching out for some ingredients, then looked up at me, and looked away, as if to ignore me. It felt so real, I really had to wonder if it actually happened.

For today, I decided to try to play it a little smarter - I'd go early, and if she's there I'd buy lunch, and if she wasn't, I'd walk by and come back later. The gambling urge had gotten to me so I figured if she's not there I could go have a gamble and come back.

When I went downstairs, she was nowhere to be seen so I kept walking and went down the escalator and ended up going to the casino. I went to roulette and looked around for Julie but couldn't see her. All I could see were new dealers I didn't recognise.

I cashed in at one table and then realised it was a $25 table. Goddamnit, now they have two tables in the main roulette area that are $25. Are they that desperate, or are people winning too much from the $10 tables?

I cashed back out and then went to a $10 table. There was a guy there but he didn't end up playing so I was all alone. I knew this was dangerous. I lost a few spins before deciding to go at the 0-3 section since the dealer seemed to hit that fairly evenly.

Luckily it landed on 32 where I had a few splits, and I was now up close to $400. I played some outside bets and rounded it off to a $400 gain before cashing out. I walked over to baccarat and memories of Misha came flooding back. I looked around almost as if expecting to see her.

I saw Summer and thought I'd go speak to her but as I passed she was waving to another girl who worked there, so I kept on walking.

Funny thing is, I went in wanting to win $200, but now $400 seems like nothing. I guess this is just all part of the gambling cycle.

Anyway, after depositing my money I went back to the cafe. Falafel girl was there making some toasted sandwich on a plate, and as I stood there waiting to be served, she looked at me and we smiled at each other.

I was served by the chubby blonde girl and she made my sandwich. When falafel girl finished delivering the plate to the table she came back. She was watching the girl make my sandwich and said something about what was added/missing. I then said I'd add lettuce as I didn't ask for that initially. 

I said to her "you're very busy today", and she came back, almost shouting, almost seeming a bit too eager, "today not busy! I just went to serve table". Immediately I fell in love with her Korean accent. In that brief exchange, it felt like there was so much potential for chemistry, and it felt like she was just so happy that I had said something apart from the usual.

She took my money and gave me my change and then I left, feeling over the moon. Being ignored by Summer was merely now an after thought.