No Julie :(
On Saturday morning I went to basketball at the courts nearby. Maybe it was not having played for a few weeks there, or maybe it was the heat, but early on I found myself struggling to run. I just seemed to prefer to walk when possible, but I did run when I needed to.
After that I went home, had a shower, then had a nap, knowing I would need the rest for basketball training later on. I was close to going to the gym, but instead used the time to look up youtube videos for drills we could do.
I went to pick up Kevin and was a bit annoyed, because he was asleep and wasn't answering his phone. About two minutes after I drove off he called me, and so I had to turn around to get him and wait. We ended up being about 50 minutes late to training.
The session was ok, Mark got pissed because of people's lack of discipline and arguments from Mike as to left handed lay ups.
After that we went to a Thai restaurant in Stratty to eat. I kept looking out for a possible Jin sighting, as it was full of Koreans, but didn't see anyone close to her. I did, however, see some other hot Korean girls and it made me realise that there were better girls out there (for me?).
During the meal, we talked a bit about next season. I asked if we would have the same team, and Mike said yes, unless I wasn't playing. I thought about telling them at that moment that I wanted this next season to be my last, but I enjoyed the team camaraderie too much. I enjoyed being with the guys too much. I enjoyed basketball too much. So I said nothing.
On Sunday morning I bummed around on the net, then went back to sleep, and when I woke up I dragged myself to the gym. I had planned to go see Annabelle afterwards but my stomach wasn't feeling up to it. So instead I went home and played Last of Us.
Guess what? That meant I had a total CLEAN weekend without gambling or whoring! Woo! You know how much money I saved??
Last night I had a dream / nightmare. I dreamed I was stuck in a toilet cubicle, but for some reason I could stick my head out through the door. A baby boy dragged the second model of the PS4 to give to me. The baby was my son. His mother was Jin. I was crying and hugging my son, apologising for his mother being a prostitute, telling him it wasn't his fault. It was mine. I had brought him into this world.
Today work was the usual - half reading, half checking my phone. At lunch I went out to send a letter (to change the name for the speeding offence to my dad's) and bought a pair of long socks from Rebel.
In the afternoon, as the clock ticked towards knock off time, I began thinking about going to the casino to see Julie. I was thinking about what to say. I pictured her standing at the table alone with no one playing. I'd walk up and say "cleaned everyone out already huh?" Or maybe I could say "hey, you're the zero girl".
I had my credit card with me specifically for this possibility, and after work I did end up going. As I walked to the casino after withdrawing $1600, I thought maybe I could say "are you the girl who's going to make me rich tonight?"
I was so looking forward to it. Making money was no longer the goal. The goal was to see her and talk to her. And not lose any money.
When I got there, I eagerly walked around the tables to look for her. She wasn't there. I saw the Vietnamese MILF though.
I was disappointed.
I went to the table where I had talked to her last time, hoping maybe she was just on a shift break and would come in due course. I bought in $800 worth of chips. Pretty soon, I lost $600 and had to buy another $800 worth of chips.
Suddenly, all I wanted was to make maybe a $100 gain and walk around looking for her. With a bit of luck, I started making a bit back. Then on one spin, I won huge - I had three straight ups and four splits on 24. I almost couldn't believe my eyes as I watched the ball drop into the 24 slot.
I was now up $800. From there, I played kinda small for a bit before losing one spin which made me grind the wheel again. I recall at one stage, all I wanted was one last small win playing the 1-2 sector, and I told myself I'd finish up if I got it. I watched as the ball rolled towards the 0-3 sector but hit a ridge, bouncing back into 21 - next to four and just within my sector. I thanked my lucky stars and knew I should've left, but I kept playing.
It was about 6:30pm now, and I remembered how she finished her shift at around 7pm, so if she was working somewhere else, now would be a good time to walk around the casino to look for her. But I saw that Asian girl with the Egyptian hairstyle and I stayed, hoping she'd come to my table. Maybe it was just me, but I thought I saw her playing with $100 chips. She must be chasing losses. I watched as she lost those chips and left. How sad.
I saw another Asian girl playing, one I had seen before. She is real plain Jane looking, would never think she was a gambling addict. But I could tell, as she seemed to rush her bets as the ball was winding down its fall. I could also tell she gambled out of some other inherent reason. I don't think she was greedy or needed money. She kinda reminded me of myself in my early gambling years.
I finally left with a $910 gain. Not bad given I was only after $100. I walked around the casino, thinking I'd say to Julie "did they kick you off roulette?" if I saw her at another game. But I didn't see her. I cashed in and left, going back to the office to change.
Maybe I'll see her on Thursday.
After that I went home, had a shower, then had a nap, knowing I would need the rest for basketball training later on. I was close to going to the gym, but instead used the time to look up youtube videos for drills we could do.
I went to pick up Kevin and was a bit annoyed, because he was asleep and wasn't answering his phone. About two minutes after I drove off he called me, and so I had to turn around to get him and wait. We ended up being about 50 minutes late to training.
The session was ok, Mark got pissed because of people's lack of discipline and arguments from Mike as to left handed lay ups.
After that we went to a Thai restaurant in Stratty to eat. I kept looking out for a possible Jin sighting, as it was full of Koreans, but didn't see anyone close to her. I did, however, see some other hot Korean girls and it made me realise that there were better girls out there (for me?).
During the meal, we talked a bit about next season. I asked if we would have the same team, and Mike said yes, unless I wasn't playing. I thought about telling them at that moment that I wanted this next season to be my last, but I enjoyed the team camaraderie too much. I enjoyed being with the guys too much. I enjoyed basketball too much. So I said nothing.
On Sunday morning I bummed around on the net, then went back to sleep, and when I woke up I dragged myself to the gym. I had planned to go see Annabelle afterwards but my stomach wasn't feeling up to it. So instead I went home and played Last of Us.
Guess what? That meant I had a total CLEAN weekend without gambling or whoring! Woo! You know how much money I saved??
Last night I had a dream / nightmare. I dreamed I was stuck in a toilet cubicle, but for some reason I could stick my head out through the door. A baby boy dragged the second model of the PS4 to give to me. The baby was my son. His mother was Jin. I was crying and hugging my son, apologising for his mother being a prostitute, telling him it wasn't his fault. It was mine. I had brought him into this world.
Today work was the usual - half reading, half checking my phone. At lunch I went out to send a letter (to change the name for the speeding offence to my dad's) and bought a pair of long socks from Rebel.
In the afternoon, as the clock ticked towards knock off time, I began thinking about going to the casino to see Julie. I was thinking about what to say. I pictured her standing at the table alone with no one playing. I'd walk up and say "cleaned everyone out already huh?" Or maybe I could say "hey, you're the zero girl".
I had my credit card with me specifically for this possibility, and after work I did end up going. As I walked to the casino after withdrawing $1600, I thought maybe I could say "are you the girl who's going to make me rich tonight?"
I was so looking forward to it. Making money was no longer the goal. The goal was to see her and talk to her. And not lose any money.
When I got there, I eagerly walked around the tables to look for her. She wasn't there. I saw the Vietnamese MILF though.
I was disappointed.
I went to the table where I had talked to her last time, hoping maybe she was just on a shift break and would come in due course. I bought in $800 worth of chips. Pretty soon, I lost $600 and had to buy another $800 worth of chips.
Suddenly, all I wanted was to make maybe a $100 gain and walk around looking for her. With a bit of luck, I started making a bit back. Then on one spin, I won huge - I had three straight ups and four splits on 24. I almost couldn't believe my eyes as I watched the ball drop into the 24 slot.
I was now up $800. From there, I played kinda small for a bit before losing one spin which made me grind the wheel again. I recall at one stage, all I wanted was one last small win playing the 1-2 sector, and I told myself I'd finish up if I got it. I watched as the ball rolled towards the 0-3 sector but hit a ridge, bouncing back into 21 - next to four and just within my sector. I thanked my lucky stars and knew I should've left, but I kept playing.
It was about 6:30pm now, and I remembered how she finished her shift at around 7pm, so if she was working somewhere else, now would be a good time to walk around the casino to look for her. But I saw that Asian girl with the Egyptian hairstyle and I stayed, hoping she'd come to my table. Maybe it was just me, but I thought I saw her playing with $100 chips. She must be chasing losses. I watched as she lost those chips and left. How sad.
I saw another Asian girl playing, one I had seen before. She is real plain Jane looking, would never think she was a gambling addict. But I could tell, as she seemed to rush her bets as the ball was winding down its fall. I could also tell she gambled out of some other inherent reason. I don't think she was greedy or needed money. She kinda reminded me of myself in my early gambling years.
I finally left with a $910 gain. Not bad given I was only after $100. I walked around the casino, thinking I'd say to Julie "did they kick you off roulette?" if I saw her at another game. But I didn't see her. I cashed in and left, going back to the office to change.
Maybe I'll see her on Thursday.
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