Punt vs quit

Since my physio started, today was the earliest I have ever gotten to the gym. I reckon I got there at about 6:10-6:20am. Took me long enough.

A few days ago I also noticed that where my scar is, the area has gone down a lot. It used to be a bump, but I guess Jonathan's massage really worked. The stretchy feeling around the incision area isn't as strong now, but it's still there. I still don't have that much flexion when I stand and bend my knee. There is a lot of tightness, especially at the back of my quads. It's starting to trouble me but I just tell myself it'll come with time.

I got to work at about 8:15am, made breakfast and started working. I find that I don't say good morning to Alanna when I pass her office, mainly because she always has her back turned. She sent me an email saying something like "I'm still not convinced you don't live here ;)", in reference to my start time. I'm always a little bit uneasy when I get emails like that, cause I don't want to be too friendly, and I don't want to be rude. I just replied with "ssshhhhh, Darrell is thinking of charging me rent!"

To be honest, she treats me fairly well. Actually that may be under-stating it. She treats me pretty damn good. She took a hearing off my hands today, which makes my next few weeks a bit easier. So why doesn't she have my full trust? Maybe it's because I don't know what her intentions are. Maybe she just did it to make it easier for me to get my targets, which reflects on her.

I went to talk to her in the afternoon, and she stretched back in her seat. I'm not sure if she notices, but my subconsciousness is drawn to her body whenever she does that.

I actually worked pretty damn hard today. Didn't go out for lunch, and managed to finish two briefs! Throughout the whole day, my mind was battling itself...

Just quit punting man, you could save sooooo much more money. Pay off your credit card first, and then you can resume these activities...

No way man, you gotta enjoy life. Like the cleaner said, we spend 2/3 of our lives working and sleeping, so when do we get to live life? Life is about experiences!

Well ok, maybe I'll just see Sasa. There's no way I can afford to see two girls.

But you had such a connection with Lilly! She was teaching you Korean! You can't just let her go!

Ok, maybe I can alternate between them each week...

Argh, this was killing me! Don't know how I got that much work done with all those noises in my head.

Also in the late afternoon, I started hearing music coming from Ogre's room. I thought it was kinda funny, but didn't give it much more thought than that. Then I heard the boss Wendy tell her to turn it off, lol. Then it was silence. I could just imagine what Ogre would be thinking.

I worked till about 7pm, then went to the gym nearby. So packed, couldn't even do my abs.