Ever feel like everyone hates you?

In the morning, I drove to the gym. As I was turning onto a road near the park, I saw this car speed up and get really close to me. I didn't do anything and just kept going until I reached the T intersection and waited. The car stopped next to me and a guy in the passenger seat started gesturing and saying something, but his window was up.

Aight, that's it, I've had enough.

I gave him a 'nod' like "what's up?" and then put my hand behind my ear to let him know I couldn't hear him. I could tell he backed down a little because he didn't roll down his window. Chicken shit. If you have the guts to start shit, continue with it.

That shook me for a bit, and I suddenly got very angry. I had decided to train with anger. But at the gym, I dropped my car and a trainer picked it up for me, and after I cleaned my rowing thing, I nearly walked into a blonde who had stood in my way and she smiled and apologised.

Maybe people don't hate you?

Nevertheless, I picked up 13kg weights and did curls with them, thinking about what had happened to motivate myself.

Work was ok, spent the day preparing for Friday. I know I said I wouldn't, but I spontaneously asked Karina if she felt like dessert. She said yes, and I took her to that Asian dessert place in Chinatown, but she didn't seem too keen so I said we could go. She said we could stay, but I didn't want to force her. She wanted an ice cream so we went to Macca's, but they didn't have it so we went to the one on the main street. I bought a happy meal and we ate our things sitting down at some seats in the plaza.

We talked about movies, science (she's listening to science tapes now) and gossiped a bit. She asked if Lewis was unhappy, picking up a remark he made once when she bumped into him. I told her he had told me he was looking to go to defence.

Call me paranoid, but I have this suspicion that she was trying to hint for me to ask her out. She mentioned several times about going out with her friends, and then said she wanted to go see Despicable Me. Hmmm.

Also, with Alanna, sometimes I think she's trying to test me to see if I'll perv on her. I went to her asking for some cases, and she had to stand and reach for her folders. She looked through a few and couldn't find any, and when I said I'd go she asked me to stay. She stayed posed in that reaching position and turned her head, which was actually quite sexy, but I resisted.

In the afternoon, I got a call from this Trent guy, asking me about a file I had. He said it was in tomorrow's list, but I didn't have a calendar. He was pretty rude about it. When I asked him if it was, he said "well I don't know!"

I quickly checked and indeed it was. I had forgotten to put it in my diary. I quickly did it and went too give it to him. The first thing he said was "so was it in the list?" aggressively. I just told him what had to be done, gave him the file and left.

That left me so angry. It was on my mind for the rest of the day. I looked him up and he's a SLO, but fuck it, I'll fucking knock him out and lose my job. I don't care, I can always work somewhere else. What a fucker. But you know what? It's good. It's always good to see people who show their card first. And also, he's given me motivation now. I'm going to get higher than him then fucking destroy him. You watch.

Cunt. That's two enemies.

At the end of the day (night really) I had a long talk to Wendy about my matter on Friday. We seem to be getting along very slowly.

I went to the gym, caught the bus cause dad took the car keys (but not the car). I forgot my card cause I was using it to register for something, and when I went to tell the guy, when I gave the wrong name, he looked at me like I was trying to trick my way in. Ummm...dude, you like, see me every single fucking night!!!

After gym, I was going to buy something to eat but I saw a bus coming. So I...naturally ran. I jogged to the bus stop. And it felt goooooooood.

After I got off the bus, I jogged a bit towards home. It's a bit like when I first started walking properly - my right foot is landing flat on the ground instead of heel then toe.

Also, standing and bending my leg is a bit easier now. I think the swimming really did something good to it. But tonight, I did the bike before the press against the wall, and found that it stiffened up a bit after the bike, so that not much of my calve could touch the wall.

I'm just glad I could jog :)