Breaking the news to the others
On Wednesday I stayed back at work a bit to work on that report. Afterwards I went to the gym. I was wondering whether Jim would be there as he told me previously that he would go on week nights. Sure enough, as I was walking in, he was walking out.
He ended up staying with me while I worked out, and then we had dinner after. I was planning to eat at home but then figured my dad wasn't home anyway. He was good, because I was tempted to eat KFC and his presence made me feel guilty, so we went for the ramen place behind KFC.
Tempted to try a blue ice cream place nearby but in the end we didn't, We both agreed it wasn't a "Wednesday night thing" lol.
On Thursday after work I went to the casino. When I got there the tables were either packed or empty, so I stood at one watching. After a few minutes, I saw Julie come to the next table to start her shift. It wasn't too awkward, but then the one next to hers (not joined) had a space become free, so I took the opportunity and went. In hindsight she probably thought I chose it so I would be in her line of sight.
The dealer was a girl who had a very boy-ish hairstyle. I felt a bit of pressure not to lose. Would've been pretty humiliating to lose in front of Julie. As I played, I would sometimes glance over. She looked in my direction too, but never made eye contact. I admired her, but I no longer felt infatuated with her. She looked a bit worn out. Guess the job can do it to you. I started seeing things in perspective, realising how dumb it was to go to the casino just to talk to her. It seems so long ago now, lol.
Anyway, I was doing ok at my table. The dealer seemed to be hitting a good variation of 0-3 and 1-2, so I decided to take the plunge and go with the 0-3 sector. I lost on the first one and then piled a bit on the next spin. It landed on 9. I thought I had two splits and a straight up but when I looked closely I realised I had three splits and a straight up.
So I was up by about $600. I tried to crawl my way up to $700 but it didn't work. There was a dealer change, and it was a jolly fat NZ guy. I started losing on a bit of a streak and wondered why the fuck I kept gambling, but luckily got a few lucky spins and came back to my $600 gain. In the end, I left with $640.
Have I ever mentioned that there's a rather hot chick at the cashier window? She looks Vietnamese and pretty sure she is, given her name badge says My. I've seen her there many times but that was back then when I was still infatuated with Julie. I went to her window and gave her a bit of a gangster nod as I handed over my chips. I would totally go for her, but there's no way I'd ever make it to getting her number.
On Friday night I met up with the high school boys for dinner. I went home, got ready then picked Malay up, finally gave him the present I got for him from HK, then picked Brain up. We drove to Stratty to pick Thai up and then introduced them to Pine Inn. They found the servings to be too big lol. I found Malay a bit annoying as he turned eating into a competition, basically bragging about how much he ate, as if it was a good thing. I just can't stand that it's just a phase for him - before it was running, then it was weight lifting, then chilli, and now eating.
Anyway, I told them that Shuing had cancer, which was a shock to Thai and Brain (Malay already knew from Shuing's whatsapp message). We all talked about it throughout the meal, guess no one really knew what to say, though Thai did share my sentiment that Shuing just never really seemed happy or to enjoy life, and maybe that had something to do with it.
Afterwards we went to Burwood for coffees, though I just had an ice cream. I've begun to despise this type of going out. Don't get me wrong, I like to hang out with my friends, but just this constant habit of going for a coffee or dessert after dinner is not doing my diet any good (though I am still abstaining from soft drinks - past 30 days now).
We didn't talk much about Shuing here, just the guys talking about video games mainly.
On Saturday I was planning to go to morning basketball but when I woke up at 6am and heard rain, I went back to sleep. I woke up at 9:30am and saw that it was sunny, grrrr.
I later went into the office to get some work done, but not long after G called and said Shuing was up for meeting so I went along with it. I did a bit more work and then went home where G picked me up.
We went to Shuing's place and knocked on the door. There was no answer and we stood there for like five minutes before calling him. I told him we were outside and we waited another 10 minutes before he came to the door. His face was yellow and there were stitches on his left eyebrow. G asked him what happened and he said that was from the fall.
We stood there for a bit, and I could sense Shuing was in a grumpy mood. G did a good thing and brought him a bubble tea drink but I think Shuing was about to blast him about buying him a cold drink and then changed his mind.
We went for a walk around the block and through the park. I tried my best not to agitate him, though I think G managed to do it a few times. G had good intentions and was just trying to make conversation, but Shuing was his usual condescending self, though neither of us said anything because of the circumstances.
I just asked more sensible questions and tried to stay silent at times to let Shuing initiate talk. He said he had chronic myeloid leukaemia, which was different to what Colin had. He kept talking about the odds of getting it, and being sarcastic saying how lucky he was. He also seemed to express some sort of spiced up envy of Colin having a sibling who donated their bone marrow for him, whereas Shuing was an only child.
He said he will go into hospital on Tuesday to begin treatment. He said he was thinking of stopping work, which I thought was the right thing to do. We ended up sitting in G's car talking, and it came to a bit of an awkward topic - G was half joking but Shuing was serious when he said he wanted to have his sperm frozen. It made me question whether the ultimate meaning of life was to reproduce? And if so, what was I doing in my life to progress that goal?
Shuing's parents arrived home and they came over to exchange a few words, with his mother saying "courage". I ended our meet up shortly after that as I had to get to basketball.
G drove me home and I got changed. I left 45 minutes before I was supposed to pick up Daniel as I didn't want to be late again. But the traffic was really fucked and I was like 10 minutes late lol. Lucky he's a nice dude.
Basketball was good, had a good run, didn't really plan on scoring but at times was extra motivated to stop Kevin just to teach him some humility. I got my point when he was dribbling and ready to do a cross over and I poked it away and we both chased it into the back court. I could've dived for it but thought it was just practice, so he ended up getting it.
Towards the end I started getting warmed up as I hit two shots in a row.
Afterwards Daniel, Mark, Kevin and I went to eat in Eastwood.
Today I went into the office, got more work done than yesterday. Then I went to the gym and had a nice proper work out, including the stretches the physio showed me. The gym was so empty on the weekend, it was like a temple. I really enjoyed it.
I was supposed to go to a movie with Mark and Daniel, but when I confirmed, Mark said he could only make the 9:30pm session of Mad Max instead of 6pm of Age of Adaline, so that was the end of that.
He ended up staying with me while I worked out, and then we had dinner after. I was planning to eat at home but then figured my dad wasn't home anyway. He was good, because I was tempted to eat KFC and his presence made me feel guilty, so we went for the ramen place behind KFC.
Tempted to try a blue ice cream place nearby but in the end we didn't, We both agreed it wasn't a "Wednesday night thing" lol.
On Thursday after work I went to the casino. When I got there the tables were either packed or empty, so I stood at one watching. After a few minutes, I saw Julie come to the next table to start her shift. It wasn't too awkward, but then the one next to hers (not joined) had a space become free, so I took the opportunity and went. In hindsight she probably thought I chose it so I would be in her line of sight.
The dealer was a girl who had a very boy-ish hairstyle. I felt a bit of pressure not to lose. Would've been pretty humiliating to lose in front of Julie. As I played, I would sometimes glance over. She looked in my direction too, but never made eye contact. I admired her, but I no longer felt infatuated with her. She looked a bit worn out. Guess the job can do it to you. I started seeing things in perspective, realising how dumb it was to go to the casino just to talk to her. It seems so long ago now, lol.
Anyway, I was doing ok at my table. The dealer seemed to be hitting a good variation of 0-3 and 1-2, so I decided to take the plunge and go with the 0-3 sector. I lost on the first one and then piled a bit on the next spin. It landed on 9. I thought I had two splits and a straight up but when I looked closely I realised I had three splits and a straight up.
So I was up by about $600. I tried to crawl my way up to $700 but it didn't work. There was a dealer change, and it was a jolly fat NZ guy. I started losing on a bit of a streak and wondered why the fuck I kept gambling, but luckily got a few lucky spins and came back to my $600 gain. In the end, I left with $640.
Have I ever mentioned that there's a rather hot chick at the cashier window? She looks Vietnamese and pretty sure she is, given her name badge says My. I've seen her there many times but that was back then when I was still infatuated with Julie. I went to her window and gave her a bit of a gangster nod as I handed over my chips. I would totally go for her, but there's no way I'd ever make it to getting her number.
On Friday night I met up with the high school boys for dinner. I went home, got ready then picked Malay up, finally gave him the present I got for him from HK, then picked Brain up. We drove to Stratty to pick Thai up and then introduced them to Pine Inn. They found the servings to be too big lol. I found Malay a bit annoying as he turned eating into a competition, basically bragging about how much he ate, as if it was a good thing. I just can't stand that it's just a phase for him - before it was running, then it was weight lifting, then chilli, and now eating.
Anyway, I told them that Shuing had cancer, which was a shock to Thai and Brain (Malay already knew from Shuing's whatsapp message). We all talked about it throughout the meal, guess no one really knew what to say, though Thai did share my sentiment that Shuing just never really seemed happy or to enjoy life, and maybe that had something to do with it.
Afterwards we went to Burwood for coffees, though I just had an ice cream. I've begun to despise this type of going out. Don't get me wrong, I like to hang out with my friends, but just this constant habit of going for a coffee or dessert after dinner is not doing my diet any good (though I am still abstaining from soft drinks - past 30 days now).
We didn't talk much about Shuing here, just the guys talking about video games mainly.
On Saturday I was planning to go to morning basketball but when I woke up at 6am and heard rain, I went back to sleep. I woke up at 9:30am and saw that it was sunny, grrrr.
I later went into the office to get some work done, but not long after G called and said Shuing was up for meeting so I went along with it. I did a bit more work and then went home where G picked me up.
We went to Shuing's place and knocked on the door. There was no answer and we stood there for like five minutes before calling him. I told him we were outside and we waited another 10 minutes before he came to the door. His face was yellow and there were stitches on his left eyebrow. G asked him what happened and he said that was from the fall.
We stood there for a bit, and I could sense Shuing was in a grumpy mood. G did a good thing and brought him a bubble tea drink but I think Shuing was about to blast him about buying him a cold drink and then changed his mind.
We went for a walk around the block and through the park. I tried my best not to agitate him, though I think G managed to do it a few times. G had good intentions and was just trying to make conversation, but Shuing was his usual condescending self, though neither of us said anything because of the circumstances.
I just asked more sensible questions and tried to stay silent at times to let Shuing initiate talk. He said he had chronic myeloid leukaemia, which was different to what Colin had. He kept talking about the odds of getting it, and being sarcastic saying how lucky he was. He also seemed to express some sort of spiced up envy of Colin having a sibling who donated their bone marrow for him, whereas Shuing was an only child.
He said he will go into hospital on Tuesday to begin treatment. He said he was thinking of stopping work, which I thought was the right thing to do. We ended up sitting in G's car talking, and it came to a bit of an awkward topic - G was half joking but Shuing was serious when he said he wanted to have his sperm frozen. It made me question whether the ultimate meaning of life was to reproduce? And if so, what was I doing in my life to progress that goal?
Shuing's parents arrived home and they came over to exchange a few words, with his mother saying "courage". I ended our meet up shortly after that as I had to get to basketball.
G drove me home and I got changed. I left 45 minutes before I was supposed to pick up Daniel as I didn't want to be late again. But the traffic was really fucked and I was like 10 minutes late lol. Lucky he's a nice dude.
Basketball was good, had a good run, didn't really plan on scoring but at times was extra motivated to stop Kevin just to teach him some humility. I got my point when he was dribbling and ready to do a cross over and I poked it away and we both chased it into the back court. I could've dived for it but thought it was just practice, so he ended up getting it.
Towards the end I started getting warmed up as I hit two shots in a row.
Afterwards Daniel, Mark, Kevin and I went to eat in Eastwood.
Today I went into the office, got more work done than yesterday. Then I went to the gym and had a nice proper work out, including the stretches the physio showed me. The gym was so empty on the weekend, it was like a temple. I really enjoyed it.
I was supposed to go to a movie with Mark and Daniel, but when I confirmed, Mark said he could only make the 9:30pm session of Mad Max instead of 6pm of Age of Adaline, so that was the end of that.
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