Preferring to be alone...

On Thursday, Nunjo returned from her trip to Moree and Parra. I knew everyone would be going to ask her how it was and all that. But not me. Maybe the easter break plus the days she was gone had something to do with it, but I just didn't feel like seeing her. If I never saw her again, I probably would prefer that. I don't know what changed in my mind.

I stayed in my room to work for most of the day, but at one point I was at the photocopier waiting for a printout and she came in. She said "[insert name here]" and I said "hello", both with a rather formal and uncomfortable tone. I said "you're back" and she said yes. I then got my printout and left.

I went to the gym after work.

Friday
I haven't seen that chick on the walk to work much. I think I saw her on Tuesday and that was it. Hmmm.

The ignoring of Nunjo continued. But it was hard at times because Mary would be in a group conversation with her and Clare, and then lure me into it. One of them involved me knowing about another tall blonde female cop, and Mary said I should go for her. I said she had a boyfriend and was older. Then they started talking about some girl who had worked here previously but had fraudulently created her qualifications. I tried to avoid looking at Nunjo at all, but made eye contact sometimes.

Very uncomfortable.

I walked past Christina's room at one point and Canda was coming out. It sounded like they were talking about meeting up after work. Canda asked who was coming and Chris said "just Nunjo". I wondered if it was something similar to last time and wondered if they'd invite me. They didn't.

I was emailing Ele about meeting up.I was going to tell her about my mobile car wash idea. But to be honest, I don't think she really wanted to meet. She said she was going to the gym and could meet after. I said I'd go to gym as well and meet her after. She did say she could skip gym and meet me, and added that she "was flexible". I asked "how flexible?" and noticed she totally ignored that message.

Perhaps that was the final hit to home that she wasn't there to flirt; just to share business ideas.

:(

So I went to the gym after work, did my stuff and then met her. We went into Woolies because I wanted to get a potato salad. Despite me making her laugh, she said she wasn't planning to walk to Central, which I figured would give me time to explain the idea to her. Instead, we stood at Town Hall and talked. She seemed to like my idea and said it was more practical than her online idea.

We agreed to look into the costs and then parted.

I really looked forward to just going home, eating my potato salad and having a quiet night.

If I hadn't of cancelled my date with Jessica due to my cold, I'd be meeting her for dinner. But somehow I preferred my night alone than to meet her. Now after the Nunjo and Ele thing, it only emphasised how I felt.

I think I just want to be alone...