Yui...
Yesterday I managed to study in the library from about 10:30am to like 5pm, which was a pretty good effort. I studied Evidence and managed to finish off all those seen questions. Still so much more to read...
I met up with Shuing and G for dinner in Chinksford. Shuing gave me a present he got from Beijing. I wondered why he only gave it to me now. Maybe it was because he didn't get the other guys anything? It was a Chinese themed book hard cover. He seemed like he was quite proud he had chosen it for me, but to be honest, I kinda thought "wtf" but I thanked him nonetheless.
I told them about my work situation and how I had gotten a six week extension on my contract, and Shuing agreed it was a tough situation. I also told them about my shirt idea and how the samples were being sent back to me. Shuing said he would be interested in trying it out. He said it would only be good for fat people as only fat people sweat. I disagree.
After that we had dessert at the Malaysian place across the road. We talked about Eva's and Michael's wedding and subsequent divorce, as well as Bobby's upcoming wedding. Also talked about G going to China for the girl, and he said the plan was to bring her back eventually. Although he doesn't seem to have put much thought into the future. Who am I to talk anyway?
Anyway, it was a good night, and I am glad I managed to switch the pizza night watching tennis at Shuing's house for this without any hiccups. I just knew Shuing had put money on the game and would've been tense during the whole thing.
Today was another study session, though it wasn't as productive. I decided to study P & P even though my Ethics class is tomorrow and I haven't even looked at the questions. For some reason I was really...horny. So embarrassing. I actually found the material to be sorta interesting, but I couldn't take my mind off sex...and Jin.
In the afternoon I decided to give up and went home. I figured I'd rub one out and get something to eat, but my parents were home, so I just ate a pie. I decided to return to the library, telling myself it'd be worth it even if I read up on just one more topic. I managed two.
When I got home I had pretty much decided to go punting. I went to Ginza, and waited for a girl called Yui. She looked a bit like Tracy. There was kissing involved, and she was very much a GFE, but all I could think of was Jin. Even after the sex she kept kissing me and holding me, and all I could think of was how fake this all was and how I wished it was with Jin.
So as I left, I asked myself: why do I keep wasting my money doing this shit if it doesn't solve anything at all? I think it will, but during and after I always realise I was wrong. Nothing can substitute true intimacy.
I met up with Shuing and G for dinner in Chinksford. Shuing gave me a present he got from Beijing. I wondered why he only gave it to me now. Maybe it was because he didn't get the other guys anything? It was a Chinese themed book hard cover. He seemed like he was quite proud he had chosen it for me, but to be honest, I kinda thought "wtf" but I thanked him nonetheless.
I told them about my work situation and how I had gotten a six week extension on my contract, and Shuing agreed it was a tough situation. I also told them about my shirt idea and how the samples were being sent back to me. Shuing said he would be interested in trying it out. He said it would only be good for fat people as only fat people sweat. I disagree.
After that we had dessert at the Malaysian place across the road. We talked about Eva's and Michael's wedding and subsequent divorce, as well as Bobby's upcoming wedding. Also talked about G going to China for the girl, and he said the plan was to bring her back eventually. Although he doesn't seem to have put much thought into the future. Who am I to talk anyway?
Anyway, it was a good night, and I am glad I managed to switch the pizza night watching tennis at Shuing's house for this without any hiccups. I just knew Shuing had put money on the game and would've been tense during the whole thing.
Today was another study session, though it wasn't as productive. I decided to study P & P even though my Ethics class is tomorrow and I haven't even looked at the questions. For some reason I was really...horny. So embarrassing. I actually found the material to be sorta interesting, but I couldn't take my mind off sex...and Jin.
In the afternoon I decided to give up and went home. I figured I'd rub one out and get something to eat, but my parents were home, so I just ate a pie. I decided to return to the library, telling myself it'd be worth it even if I read up on just one more topic. I managed two.
When I got home I had pretty much decided to go punting. I went to Ginza, and waited for a girl called Yui. She looked a bit like Tracy. There was kissing involved, and she was very much a GFE, but all I could think of was Jin. Even after the sex she kept kissing me and holding me, and all I could think of was how fake this all was and how I wished it was with Jin.
So as I left, I asked myself: why do I keep wasting my money doing this shit if it doesn't solve anything at all? I think it will, but during and after I always realise I was wrong. Nothing can substitute true intimacy.
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