Busted!

Walked to work, saw her again. No eye contact, but I have started to realise that when we approach eachother, she will look straight ahead, but as soon as I look her way, she will look down. So me thinks she is keeping an eye out from her peripheral vision.

Making my breakfast in the kitchen, Moira walked in, and I noticed she had changed her hair to curls. I asked if she was going for the Mad Men look (I don't even watch that damn show). She laughed and said no, she just wanted a change, and started talking about how hard it was to do with an injured hand and how it would straighten back to normal after five minutes.

Later in the morning, I noticed there was a guy sitting in her room. When I walked past I saw it was Lincoln. Presumably they had a matter together. And now it all made sense. Zena showed her cleavage when he was around, and now Moira did her hair for him. But would they ever admit it? NO!

Anyway, yesterday Ogre and I had agreed to share a pizza for lunch today. I wanted to keep it small, like just the two of us, but she asked Genie who said she was busy, and then she went around asking our team. Ogre told me Nunjo wanted chilli and chicken, I went round to her room and was like "chilli and chicken?" and she abruptly said "yes, whatever". I know she was busy, but seriously, I ain't putting up with that shit.

When I walked with Ogre to the pizza shop, I asked if she felt Nunjo was a bit abrupt and she said yes.

While at the pizza shop, I found it hard to make convo with her about anything at all. Hmmm.

We bought four pizzas and then decided to take it back to level 7 instead of our level. I figured it wouldn't be a very good look, but according to Ogre, DS saw us holding the pizzas on the street, lol.

We got to level 7 and made some calls for them to come down. Katie and Yoshi were there having lunch. They really seem like an odd pair of friends, always having quiet conversations with eachother.

They left soon after, and then Nunjo arrived, then Clare came, and then Moira. It was kinda cool to sit around and eat pizza with eachother. It felt like a pizza party, lol. What really impressed me was when Nelson came in to have his lunch and Ogre gave him a piece. For her hard exterior, she sure has a soft spot.

Nunjo left after a couple of slices, because she had a conference to go to. So Ogre, Moira, Clare and I were talking about random stuff. I said Mary should go be a Mag, because she'd be a good one. I asked them if they watched 60 Minutes and we started talking about parents hitting their kids, then about James Packer, then about women making it in business. I said Sarah Murdoch was a smart business woman, and Moira said she couldn't of made it without her husband, then we were talking about how society values looks for women and money for men, and then...

...the door behind me opened!!!

Anne G walked out with a weird look on her face, followed by some dude. We were all fucking quiet as shit, looking at eachother, embarassed, not expecting that there would've been people in the room next door. It just never fucking occurred to us!!!

Moira looked into the room, and I kept looking at her as if her reaction could tell me who else was there. She closed the door slightly and then PoSho walked out! Fucking hell!!!

By now I was racking my brains, trying to think of what we had just said, and whether I said anything derogatory about the office. I'm pretty sure I didn't. Goddamnit.

We were still recovering from the shock when they returned to the room, and then Mary walked in and we told her, then we started talking about other stuff. I was obviously quiet from here on.

When I went back to my desk, I thought it was a bit of a shame - I had worked well all day, kept to myself, only to be ruined by this. Now there was no way I'd be getting the promotion.

But didn't you say that that would be a blessing in disguise? That it would give you an opportunity to look for another job?


Shut up.


I worked till 5pm and then went out to meet Ele. I had sent her an email at 4pm asking her, which was kinda sudden. It was a bit odd seeing her. I mean, I was greeted with a familiar feeling when I first saw her, but I found myself trying to re-catch myself onto her wave length.

One thought that occurred to me as we walked: I had a good feeling my right knee was done. It felt a little bit worse than yesterday. Not pain, but something was just loose, like I had damaged/impacted it. Not good.

I took her to a jewellery store on the main street, and told her about the crystal I bought for my mom, then she took me to various jewellery stores in Chinatown to show me real crystals. I told her about my problems with Bo, and she was actually making suggestions for me. I didn't think they were too viable, but I really appreciated her listening, understanding, and trying to help.

I walked her to Central and then headed back to the office. I saw that Maria was still at work, and it was now a little past 6pm. I messaged her "staying back?" and she replied "haha yeah a bit", and then asked me the same. I asked if she had court tomorrow and she replied "yes". I thought that was a bit blunt so I didn't reply, then she said something like "working on subs too" and wished me good luck on mine. I said the same to her, and that was it.

Hmmm. I was kinda disappointed. I don't think she's interested. So obviously, as I worked, my mind raced through the whole "why doesn't anyone like me" theme, and thought about going to Naby's shop.

I worked till 8pm and she was still online, and then I left for the gym. I did the weightless workout again and then went back to the office to change for court tomorrow.