Shoyo 0-0-1

In the morning I saw her on my walk to work again. I still felt a bit rejected from her no look the other day, so I decided to give it back, so when I saw her I just looked straight ahead.

I spent Wednesday preparing for my list the next day, but there were only 11 matters so that didn't take too long. I probably could've sat in for Chris in her trial, but it would've rushed things, particularly since two people pretty much forgot they had files in the list.

In the afternoon we had a CLE. I hadn't really spoken to Nunjo much throughout the day, but just before the CLE I walked past her room. I had semi intentions to ask her if she was going, but when I looked in, she was sitting facing me sipping away on her Solo with a straw. So I asked her if she was going and she said yes.

Mary came around and I asked if she was going, and I got the sense that she didn't like the speaker and she wasn't going. Genie, Clare and I went out the door first, while Nunjo spoke to Mary. I forgot my glasses and had to go get them, so I went back in. Nunjo said she wasn't going anymore, and I was like like "ok" and went to get my glasses and left again.

I sat next to Clare during the talk. Once or twice she'd lean over and whisper something to me. I couldn't help but secretly enjoy it, even though I knew she saw me as nothing more than a friendly colleague. I caught Katie looking at me once or twice. I found myself asking "why? Why the hell do you look at me if you are not interested and after all this time? Why?!?!?"

After that I went to meet Ele. We walked down the main street together to Central, and we discussed our business idea. She made some minor changes to my ideas, and we agreed that she'd look into the financial situation and get back to me. I wonder how serious this could get. I did notice one thing - as we stood at the station talking, she noticed a string of material coming loose from my suit and tried to pick it off. I remember reading that when women are interested in a guy, they will try to groom them.

Also, I told her that I thought there was no point in franchising because at best you're only ever going to be as good as the original. She said that's why she liked me, because I have a smart brain. The look in her eyes seemed to suggest she was under some sort of trance by me. I wished I could correct her - I'm not as smart as she thinks :( Now I feel like a phoney.

I had to rush off because I had basketball. I went back to the office to get the suitcase. Bo asked me to print something for basketball, but didn't include the attachment, so I just left and went home. I changed and then drove out to basketball.

I saw One and his friend Alex there, then everyone else started arriving. I didn't really want to start as I didn't want to get too involved with this team, but Jim was submissive and didn't want to start, so I did.

We weren't doing too bad - One's Alex was pretty good, and Bo seemed to have made his return without missing a beat. Nick came sometime during the first half and Dunnycan came later. I felt that Nick, as useful as his size is, seemed to slow our scoring down a bit. Or maybe it was just because One's Alex came off.

We had to do duty as well, which was a bit weird. I did it for a stint, and a girl from the other team was doing the buttons. I had a few words with her, and wondered if I could steal her from the other team.

Despite having told myself not to get too involved with this team, I found myself getting pretty competitive and wanting to win. Late in the second half, it became a close game after they caught up a bit. I told Asian Alex to go on for Mike. Mike was inbounding. Asian Alex called out to him and Mike waved him off. Asian Alex came back to the bench and I gave him a "wtf" look.

Later when Mike came off, I said to him "never wave off a team mate". He started explaining why he did it which seemed to be along the lines of "I didn't do it", and I didn't want to argue during the game so I just said "don't worry, don't worry". I actually meant, don't worry, it's not an issue for me, but he took it as me shutting him down, so he said "fuck it". I didn't say anything back but I could feel the separation between us.

I felt he was really different that night, he was louder and more aggressive towards the refs. I thought he was quite arrogant that night. I wondered if getting a job had given him a big head.

We drew the game, and Nick stormed off. Mike and Asian Alex were shooting together which I didn't like. Maybe I'm jealous that Mike has a new buddy, or maybe I don't like the fact that they conspire together to come up with new plays that only involves them two without telling the rest of the team.

I left them without saying anything and spent a bit of time outside talking to One, his Alex and Jim. It was then that I realised one thing - One actually wants to help the team. If you look at his messages, they are directed at helping the team. It's just the way the messages are delivered which may offend people. This is in contrast to others on the team who only think about themselves.

I drove home, wanting to get to bed early as I didn't want to wake up late the next day.