Feeling lost...
In the morning I checked my facebook and saw a message from Evonne. She called herself Ele's sister...I wonder why they do that. Let's see how sisterly they are if she doesn't pay her rent. Anyway, she just asked if I could check her report for her, which I agreed, not because I like her, but just because I wanna help.
I didn't go to the gym because I had to go to court in Burwood. I had a fuller read through the file on the train. It's really only after I do something like that that I feel more confident about my business.
On the train I saw Bo had messaged me, asking if I wanted to go to Brisbane this weekend to help clean up with the floods. I thought it was a good idea, so enquired more, until I found out the plane ticket would cost $200. Look, I wanna help out, but I don't think spending $200 to do volunteer work is such a great idea...
I got to the court and waited outside for it to open. When it did, I went inside and sat around reading more of the file. I was scared I'd screw up. I was scared the other side would be some really experienced guy or just some nasty demanding guy. But as it turned out, it was a girl from the same office and she didn't seem like she knew what was going on either. It made me feel a lot better. It also reminded me of my earlier days working for Nom.
We managed to get the matter done without any problems, and I headed back to the train station to get the train back to the city. The thought of checking out the shopping centre did cross my mind, but I decided against it. Particularly, I wanted to walk past the cafe where I met Wendy Z for coffee - that seems to be my memory of Burwood now.
I returned to the office, with lunch time in mind so I could go take a picture of a tv and send it to Naby. When lunch rolled around, I went to the RTA to pay a fine, which took like 45 minutes, so I quickly rushed to JB Hi-fi and took a picture of a Sony tv going for around $800 (turns out I was right about the price I told her), only to find out that it didn't save properly on my phone...grrr.
I then went to this small shop to get some sushi for lunch. I spotted it the day I went looking for that "Ronga" place for Lily. It was on a small street and probably because of that the prices were pretty low. So I grabbed lunch from there and ate it back in the office.
In the afternoon, Sarah emailed to ask if I'd be free for a file review tomorrow morning. I emailed back with "yup" and she emailed back with a motivator poster of a dog saying "guess who's awesome?" It was pretty darn cute, and later I went to talk to her and asked if she was a dog person, and she showed me a picture of her dog from her phone.
Also, Mary sent around an email saying that Moira was acting SLO while Ogre was away. I couldn't help but feel it was a bit of a slap to the face for me. On one (fat-fetched) view, Moira and I had started at around the same time, albiet in different divisions. On another (more realistic) view, I am still new to this division, and if it had been me who got the acting role (even if it was only for a couple of weeks), it would've been a bigger slap in the face to Moira. So I guess I'll just sit here and be content...for now.
I left work a few minutes before 5pm, eager to try the tv photo again. I didn't want to go to the same JB Hi-fi because it'd look really suss, so I went to the one in TGV, but they didn't sell tvs. I went up further and again that one didn't sell tvs either :(
So I settled for taking the catalogue, going to a bench and taking a photo of an advertised Sony in there. I was pretty excited. I sent the photo to her and it took a while to go through, probably because of the size of the photo. I didn't expect a reply, but nevertheless kept checking my phone.
I sent Egghead a message to see if he wanted to meet for drinks this Friday and later felt my phone vibrate. I was pretty sure it was Egghead, and I was right.
To be honest I felt a bit pathetic. I felt like one of those old, fat guys being scammed by a young girl who was only in it for the money. I can't believe my feelings of excitement had changed to this after sending just one message.
Maybe I'm just in a bit of a down mood because she hasn't replied, but I kinda feel like straying away from the whole punting scene, at least for a month. On the bus, I pictured myself competing financially with Bobby. I could see the news reports now - I would be so much more competitive if I didn't have that extra expense on the side.
I wanted to pay off my credit card. I wanted to invest my money in shares. I like investing. I like receiving that letter a while later to show that you are the new owner of a company. In fact, I received one today for NRU.
I don't know how I feel right now. If today was Saturday, I know I wouldn't go see Naby. That's how I feel right now, but I can't say if I'd feel that way come Saturday, even though I'd like to. I spent much of the bus ride trying to figure out if she gave the GFE just to me, or every customer she saw. Did she do the eskimo kiss with everyone? Did she wipe the sweat off every guy's forehead? Did she call everyone chagiya?
I guess what I'm looking for now is more than sex, something outside of sex, outside of that room.
I didn't go to the gym because I had to go to court in Burwood. I had a fuller read through the file on the train. It's really only after I do something like that that I feel more confident about my business.
On the train I saw Bo had messaged me, asking if I wanted to go to Brisbane this weekend to help clean up with the floods. I thought it was a good idea, so enquired more, until I found out the plane ticket would cost $200. Look, I wanna help out, but I don't think spending $200 to do volunteer work is such a great idea...
I got to the court and waited outside for it to open. When it did, I went inside and sat around reading more of the file. I was scared I'd screw up. I was scared the other side would be some really experienced guy or just some nasty demanding guy. But as it turned out, it was a girl from the same office and she didn't seem like she knew what was going on either. It made me feel a lot better. It also reminded me of my earlier days working for Nom.
We managed to get the matter done without any problems, and I headed back to the train station to get the train back to the city. The thought of checking out the shopping centre did cross my mind, but I decided against it. Particularly, I wanted to walk past the cafe where I met Wendy Z for coffee - that seems to be my memory of Burwood now.
I returned to the office, with lunch time in mind so I could go take a picture of a tv and send it to Naby. When lunch rolled around, I went to the RTA to pay a fine, which took like 45 minutes, so I quickly rushed to JB Hi-fi and took a picture of a Sony tv going for around $800 (turns out I was right about the price I told her), only to find out that it didn't save properly on my phone...grrr.
I then went to this small shop to get some sushi for lunch. I spotted it the day I went looking for that "Ronga" place for Lily. It was on a small street and probably because of that the prices were pretty low. So I grabbed lunch from there and ate it back in the office.
In the afternoon, Sarah emailed to ask if I'd be free for a file review tomorrow morning. I emailed back with "yup" and she emailed back with a motivator poster of a dog saying "guess who's awesome?" It was pretty darn cute, and later I went to talk to her and asked if she was a dog person, and she showed me a picture of her dog from her phone.
Also, Mary sent around an email saying that Moira was acting SLO while Ogre was away. I couldn't help but feel it was a bit of a slap to the face for me. On one (fat-fetched) view, Moira and I had started at around the same time, albiet in different divisions. On another (more realistic) view, I am still new to this division, and if it had been me who got the acting role (even if it was only for a couple of weeks), it would've been a bigger slap in the face to Moira. So I guess I'll just sit here and be content...for now.
I left work a few minutes before 5pm, eager to try the tv photo again. I didn't want to go to the same JB Hi-fi because it'd look really suss, so I went to the one in TGV, but they didn't sell tvs. I went up further and again that one didn't sell tvs either :(
So I settled for taking the catalogue, going to a bench and taking a photo of an advertised Sony in there. I was pretty excited. I sent the photo to her and it took a while to go through, probably because of the size of the photo. I didn't expect a reply, but nevertheless kept checking my phone.
I sent Egghead a message to see if he wanted to meet for drinks this Friday and later felt my phone vibrate. I was pretty sure it was Egghead, and I was right.
To be honest I felt a bit pathetic. I felt like one of those old, fat guys being scammed by a young girl who was only in it for the money. I can't believe my feelings of excitement had changed to this after sending just one message.
Maybe I'm just in a bit of a down mood because she hasn't replied, but I kinda feel like straying away from the whole punting scene, at least for a month. On the bus, I pictured myself competing financially with Bobby. I could see the news reports now - I would be so much more competitive if I didn't have that extra expense on the side.
I wanted to pay off my credit card. I wanted to invest my money in shares. I like investing. I like receiving that letter a while later to show that you are the new owner of a company. In fact, I received one today for NRU.
I don't know how I feel right now. If today was Saturday, I know I wouldn't go see Naby. That's how I feel right now, but I can't say if I'd feel that way come Saturday, even though I'd like to. I spent much of the bus ride trying to figure out if she gave the GFE just to me, or every customer she saw. Did she do the eskimo kiss with everyone? Did she wipe the sweat off every guy's forehead? Did she call everyone chagiya?
I guess what I'm looking for now is more than sex, something outside of sex, outside of that room.
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