One step closer to no more Lily?
Went to the gym in the morning. I've noticed that as of late, the stretchy feeling around the incision area has subsided somewhat, it's not as much of a barrier to my movement as it used to be. I guess the only problem now is that I don't have much feeling in my right leg, but that really is ancillary to everything else I've gone through.
It felt a bit empty at work because Alanna was at court. Everytime I walked past her room, it was a little odd to see her empty seat. I wonder if that's how people will feel when I'm gone.
At lunch I decided to go out to check this shop which had a closing down sale, and bumped into Alanna as I walked out the lifts and she walked in. On the way I decided it was too far away and instead stopped at a sushi train restaurant. I still have a bit of the craving so I decided to treat myself. It was good in that it was quiet, but the variety wasn't as great.
When I returned, as I walked out of the lift she walked in, and I chuckled at how coincidental the thign had been.
I did go to her in the afternoon to ask a question and asked her how court was. Later on, she came to my room to give me a file to amend, and I made a joke about how the defendant and her parter travelling on the same flight was just a coincidence, and we both said "me too!" at the same time, and I swear I spotted a sparkle in her eye.
After that I was working on another file, facing the corridor. She walked past and I just gave a friendly smile, but she stopped to ask "are you growing a beard for Movember?" I said no - it was actually my deliberate intention to not grow a beard to spite the whole thing that has gone too commercial, but I just said no. She said she only asked because it looked like I had a small patch. That was too much personal attention for me so I directed it back to her boyfriend by asking if he was doing it, and she said he did it once but never again.
I had also gone to see Karina a few times, and on one occasion asked her what there was to do in the Wood. She couldn't fofer much help, but asked why and I think she knew I'd be going there with a girl, so she suggested a park near the shopping centre.
So today was pay day and I put all my extra cash into my credit card. It felt like I was one step closer to the idea of never seeing Lily again, but then again, you never know. I guess if things with Wendy Z go well, then it may be true, which is kinda scary in a way. It feels like I'm being forced to give up something. Or it could go the way Claire went and I'd return to a life of hooking up with prostitutes.
I decided to run home today, it didn't feel as good to the pocket because I had already bought a weekly ticket, so wasn't saving any money by doing so. But I took a route which involved a bit of a hill climb, and I struggled, but the thing of beauty was, there was a long moment where I was so tired and the heat was so much that I felt like sweat was about to pour out of me, and I loved that feeling because I hadn't experienced it for so long.
For about 60% of the way I probably half jogged and half walked, then walked the rest of the 40%. So that was enough for my knee today, no gym and I just rested at home.
It felt a bit empty at work because Alanna was at court. Everytime I walked past her room, it was a little odd to see her empty seat. I wonder if that's how people will feel when I'm gone.
At lunch I decided to go out to check this shop which had a closing down sale, and bumped into Alanna as I walked out the lifts and she walked in. On the way I decided it was too far away and instead stopped at a sushi train restaurant. I still have a bit of the craving so I decided to treat myself. It was good in that it was quiet, but the variety wasn't as great.
When I returned, as I walked out of the lift she walked in, and I chuckled at how coincidental the thign had been.
I did go to her in the afternoon to ask a question and asked her how court was. Later on, she came to my room to give me a file to amend, and I made a joke about how the defendant and her parter travelling on the same flight was just a coincidence, and we both said "me too!" at the same time, and I swear I spotted a sparkle in her eye.
After that I was working on another file, facing the corridor. She walked past and I just gave a friendly smile, but she stopped to ask "are you growing a beard for Movember?" I said no - it was actually my deliberate intention to not grow a beard to spite the whole thing that has gone too commercial, but I just said no. She said she only asked because it looked like I had a small patch. That was too much personal attention for me so I directed it back to her boyfriend by asking if he was doing it, and she said he did it once but never again.
I had also gone to see Karina a few times, and on one occasion asked her what there was to do in the Wood. She couldn't fofer much help, but asked why and I think she knew I'd be going there with a girl, so she suggested a park near the shopping centre.
So today was pay day and I put all my extra cash into my credit card. It felt like I was one step closer to the idea of never seeing Lily again, but then again, you never know. I guess if things with Wendy Z go well, then it may be true, which is kinda scary in a way. It feels like I'm being forced to give up something. Or it could go the way Claire went and I'd return to a life of hooking up with prostitutes.
I decided to run home today, it didn't feel as good to the pocket because I had already bought a weekly ticket, so wasn't saving any money by doing so. But I took a route which involved a bit of a hill climb, and I struggled, but the thing of beauty was, there was a long moment where I was so tired and the heat was so much that I felt like sweat was about to pour out of me, and I loved that feeling because I hadn't experienced it for so long.
For about 60% of the way I probably half jogged and half walked, then walked the rest of the 40%. So that was enough for my knee today, no gym and I just rested at home.
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