Change of game plan!
I spent my entire day today preparing for my hearing tomorrow, but kinda in a hazy mood as I was only half concentrating. Not really because of Katie, but kinda because I think I've gone over everything I could go over.
I went to ask Alanna a lot of questions today, and I noticed she would sometimes pull her top up or cover her chest with her arms. I hope she doesn't think I'm looking, because I'm not, but goddamnit, if you're so conscious of it, THEN WEAR SOMETHING ELSE!!
Around noon today I walked past the rooms next to mine and saw Katie and her friend moving things out. I asked Katie what they were doing and they said moving things out. I asked why and where Suzanne was going. They said Suzanne had moved to the room next to the para bay.
I asked who was moving in and they smiled and said they were. Katie had this "quiet surprise" kinda look in her eyes, as if she was planning for me to find out once they had finished moving in.
They said they got the role of acting lawyer, and I congratulated them, and they said thanks. I continued into my room, thinking about what had just happened.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
Wait, what?
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
Errr...I found it hard to fathom at first. I was happy at first, but then I realised how fucked up this was. She was too close. TOO close. I needed a buffer zone, so that if I wanted to talk to her I could, and if I didn't want to then I didn't have to. But now we'll be seeing eachother LOTS. That ain't good. I feel...closed in.
At one stage Katie was pushing a trolley of folders, presumably to Suzanne's room. I asked her if she needed a hand, and she thought about it for a moment before saying no. Was she going to say yes?
I wondered if they had a choice as to who would get which room, and if they did, why Katie chose the one next to me. Was it because of me? Or was it because the glass was frosted? Or maybe because it had a slightly better view?
This was too big of a change. I went out to the park to eat my sandwich in silence, contemplating about the effects of this. I was still stunned.
When I went back to the office, I noticed just as I was going up in the lifts that they exited another set of lifts, presumably for lunch. They came back rather quickly, and when I walked past her room, I said "not Chinese food again?" I sensed a little tinsy winsy bit of annoyance on her part, as she said "Malaysian".
I sat at my desk, sensing her presence through the wall. Too. Fucking. Close.
We had a branch meeting at 2:30pm. I was in the toilet and ended up being a bit late, damn it didn't look good. I half listened and half marvelled at all the women around the room. It was like 90% women. Their legs were all showing under the table.
I tried to steal looks at Katie, but it was hard because she was sitting on my side with a few people in between. When I did get a view, I realised that her skin was kinda pale and freckly, not the type you'd consider sexy. But I still liked her.
I also noticed her friend had a wedding ring, so I assume she's married. Good. I don't want no misunderstandings. It looked like she tried to look over at me at one stage. My guess is she was trying to see if I was looking at Katie.
I don't know if Katie likes me or not, but I know one thing for sure - my presence around them is above 'normal'.
In the afternoon, I was working away when I noticed her friend had left at 5:21, but Katie was still logged in. I waited a few minutes before deciding to go over for a chat. Just as I was about to knock on her door, I noticed she wasn't there. I thought she had gone for a walk about but then when I checked my screen, she had logged out at 5:24, so I guess my screen just didn't refresh at 5:26.
I was sad for a bit, because I felt like she was avoiding me. But I kept asking myself: if she was avoiding me, why would she pick the room right next to you? Did you have a good feeling after the chats on Friday? Yes. She laughed at your jokes, she looked at you when you made that 'in-joke', and she was happy to receive your lolly. What more do you want?
I went to ask Alanna a lot of questions today, and I noticed she would sometimes pull her top up or cover her chest with her arms. I hope she doesn't think I'm looking, because I'm not, but goddamnit, if you're so conscious of it, THEN WEAR SOMETHING ELSE!!
Around noon today I walked past the rooms next to mine and saw Katie and her friend moving things out. I asked Katie what they were doing and they said moving things out. I asked why and where Suzanne was going. They said Suzanne had moved to the room next to the para bay.
I asked who was moving in and they smiled and said they were. Katie had this "quiet surprise" kinda look in her eyes, as if she was planning for me to find out once they had finished moving in.
They said they got the role of acting lawyer, and I congratulated them, and they said thanks. I continued into my room, thinking about what had just happened.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
Wait, what?
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
She's going to be in the room next to you.
Errr...I found it hard to fathom at first. I was happy at first, but then I realised how fucked up this was. She was too close. TOO close. I needed a buffer zone, so that if I wanted to talk to her I could, and if I didn't want to then I didn't have to. But now we'll be seeing eachother LOTS. That ain't good. I feel...closed in.
At one stage Katie was pushing a trolley of folders, presumably to Suzanne's room. I asked her if she needed a hand, and she thought about it for a moment before saying no. Was she going to say yes?
I wondered if they had a choice as to who would get which room, and if they did, why Katie chose the one next to me. Was it because of me? Or was it because the glass was frosted? Or maybe because it had a slightly better view?
This was too big of a change. I went out to the park to eat my sandwich in silence, contemplating about the effects of this. I was still stunned.
When I went back to the office, I noticed just as I was going up in the lifts that they exited another set of lifts, presumably for lunch. They came back rather quickly, and when I walked past her room, I said "not Chinese food again?" I sensed a little tinsy winsy bit of annoyance on her part, as she said "Malaysian".
I sat at my desk, sensing her presence through the wall. Too. Fucking. Close.
We had a branch meeting at 2:30pm. I was in the toilet and ended up being a bit late, damn it didn't look good. I half listened and half marvelled at all the women around the room. It was like 90% women. Their legs were all showing under the table.
I tried to steal looks at Katie, but it was hard because she was sitting on my side with a few people in between. When I did get a view, I realised that her skin was kinda pale and freckly, not the type you'd consider sexy. But I still liked her.
I also noticed her friend had a wedding ring, so I assume she's married. Good. I don't want no misunderstandings. It looked like she tried to look over at me at one stage. My guess is she was trying to see if I was looking at Katie.
I don't know if Katie likes me or not, but I know one thing for sure - my presence around them is above 'normal'.
In the afternoon, I was working away when I noticed her friend had left at 5:21, but Katie was still logged in. I waited a few minutes before deciding to go over for a chat. Just as I was about to knock on her door, I noticed she wasn't there. I thought she had gone for a walk about but then when I checked my screen, she had logged out at 5:24, so I guess my screen just didn't refresh at 5:26.
I was sad for a bit, because I felt like she was avoiding me. But I kept asking myself: if she was avoiding me, why would she pick the room right next to you? Did you have a good feeling after the chats on Friday? Yes. She laughed at your jokes, she looked at you when you made that 'in-joke', and she was happy to receive your lolly. What more do you want?
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