Woken up by insecurities

I wasn't woken up today by my alarm clock, but by my insecurities.

As I laid in bed, I thought "I must receive a message today".

When I went for a shower though, I seemed to have calmed down a bit.

She's back. That's all you need to know.

If she can't be bothered sending you a message, I doubt she remembered to get you a present.

Thoughts of leaving my phone entered my mind, to prevent me from sending her a stupid message.

This is the earliest I've woken up this winter.