Day 8 post surgery
Woke up today with my knee feeling like absolute crap. It hurt without me having even to move it. It felt like it needed to be moved to give it some exercise, but that seemed to cause a bit of pain as well. Was not looking forward to getting out of bed and walking, but it had to be done.
After breakfast, I slowly got ready by having a shower and all that to go out. My plan? To drive out to get Jenga for games at Ele's place tonight, and buy a modem/router.
I hobbled down the stairs as usual and went to my car. It was a bit tough getting in, but I managed by sliding the seat back to get maximum leg room. It wasn't much of a problem thereafter, except for the constant seat adjustments.
I drove to a computer store near my house across the street. I limped out without my crutch, because it was just a few metres. I went in with one of my broken modems/routers and asked the guy if they had something like it. He showed me a wireless one for $99 and said he could order something similar to mine for $65. It was a bit more expensive than I had expected, so I said I would have a think about it.
I then drove to the shopping centre near me and parked around where I usually park on the level with cover. I used my crutch (yes, single crutch!) to go to Dick Smiths. I thought about asking them for help but I found the modem/router section pretty much immediately, and they were at least $89 so I decided to try my luck with Optus (where it's originally from) at a later date.
I dropped my modem back in my car and then went to Target. I usually don't ask for directions, but found myself taking advantage of the old bag checking lady at the entrance, asking her where the board games were. She pointed me to a general direction but said they were having a massive toys sale so toys were everywhere.
I found Jenga, and was glad that I had come at the time of the sale. The price was $27 but it was now only $13!!! Wow. I was close to buying a Monopoly board game but didn't want to spend that much, and besides, it seems to cause more trouble than fun when people play it.
I took a bit of a walk around the shopping centre, feeling the need to buy something...anything.
Check out the movies to watch Inception?
You can rent a movie.
Wanna rent a movie at the Wick?
Then why the hell did you buy Scrubs??
Maybe I can get something to eat?
There's food at home!
Buy a movie at JB?
You can watch Scrubs and Seinfeld at home!!
I finally resigned to the fact that I actually didn't need to buy anything. Everything I needed was already at home. I crutched my way back to my car and drove to the Wick. I bought some snacks from the Asian grocery store. I think their stuff might be cheaper than the one in the city! This demands investigation.
I went across to the other shopping centre to withdraw some money, and then crutched my way back to my car. It felt good driving again. I swear there's nothing like blasting Eminem in the car and driving. It soothes my mind. But to my surprise I wasn't really driving that fast. I knew I didn't have the proper reflexes, so I was a bit cautious. I was also a bit fearful that my surgeon and/or physio would catch me driving, since I wasn't supposed to. Which made me think - I seem to have this bit of rebellious nature in me. I mean, I was told to use crutches, yet I could be seen walking into the computer store. I'm told not to drive, and here I was driving.
I remembered what Jonathan told me about taking it too fast and ruining the future. It really becomes a mentality. He said it's hard for those who want to rush back to rehab, because they just don't have the patience. But if you're resigned to the fact that it's a slow process, then you'll be more patient.
While I'm here I might as well document the differences in pain I'm currently feeling.
First, there's the actual knee pain. When I trip (like last night, that was a big one) or kick something with my right foot, 10 billion nerves shoot pain from inside knee to brain saying "OUCH!". It's felt at the very heart of the surgery, the core of my knee, where the ligament has been replaced. It is also the bit that hurts when my knee isn't moved enough, or is moved too much. More of this pain is NOT good for my recovery.
Second, there's the pain associated with the wound where the incisions were made. I guess aggravating this just makes me bleed more, but probably doesn't damage the knee per se. Stretching and tripping can damage these wounds.
Third, there seems to be some sort of 'stretch' pain in my hamstring. According to my physio, this is where they took the graft (I didn't think they did because there's no incisions there, but he said they bring it through from the front). If the other two pains didn't exist, this feels like it would definitely stop me from doing any form of running. It prevents me from stretching my leg too far out. Sometimes it feels like it's missing a section there (which may be true) and it makes me wonder how I can return to sport if that part is missing.
Naby
Sometimes I look at my current credit card debt, and wonder how it could be about $1,500 less if I had never gone down the Naby path. Do I regret it? Nope. Why not? Because not only did I enjoy her company, but it was a solution to going mentally insane from the whole Katie thing after it happened. I needed a distraction, and I got it. Plus, I think I may have done something stupid with Karina if I didn't have my Naby experiences on the weekends.
Also, I noticed that during the Naby period, I wasn't as angry as before, or even as often. I don't know why, but anger didn't appeal to me as much, and although I stayed motivated at work, it wasn't really anger. I kinda just mellowed out. Maybe it was all just sexual frustration?
The other thing is, if I start looking at things like that, then it could go on forever, like "if I didn't buy that suit, then I'd be x dollars richer", but life isn't as mathematically simple as that. Perhaps if I didn't spend money on that, it would've been spent elsewhere.
Do I miss Naby? Kinda, but not in a sad, heart breaking way. I guess because all along in the back of my mind it was accepted that it would be temorary, so it didn't hit me as hard when it happened. Sometimes I do wonder if she'll come back, and then I wonder if I'll see her even if she does. I do not intend to be a long time punter.
After breakfast, I slowly got ready by having a shower and all that to go out. My plan? To drive out to get Jenga for games at Ele's place tonight, and buy a modem/router.
I hobbled down the stairs as usual and went to my car. It was a bit tough getting in, but I managed by sliding the seat back to get maximum leg room. It wasn't much of a problem thereafter, except for the constant seat adjustments.
I drove to a computer store near my house across the street. I limped out without my crutch, because it was just a few metres. I went in with one of my broken modems/routers and asked the guy if they had something like it. He showed me a wireless one for $99 and said he could order something similar to mine for $65. It was a bit more expensive than I had expected, so I said I would have a think about it.
I then drove to the shopping centre near me and parked around where I usually park on the level with cover. I used my crutch (yes, single crutch!) to go to Dick Smiths. I thought about asking them for help but I found the modem/router section pretty much immediately, and they were at least $89 so I decided to try my luck with Optus (where it's originally from) at a later date.
I dropped my modem back in my car and then went to Target. I usually don't ask for directions, but found myself taking advantage of the old bag checking lady at the entrance, asking her where the board games were. She pointed me to a general direction but said they were having a massive toys sale so toys were everywhere.
I found Jenga, and was glad that I had come at the time of the sale. The price was $27 but it was now only $13!!! Wow. I was close to buying a Monopoly board game but didn't want to spend that much, and besides, it seems to cause more trouble than fun when people play it.
I took a bit of a walk around the shopping centre, feeling the need to buy something...anything.
Check out the movies to watch Inception?
You can rent a movie.
Wanna rent a movie at the Wick?
Then why the hell did you buy Scrubs??
Maybe I can get something to eat?
There's food at home!
Buy a movie at JB?
You can watch Scrubs and Seinfeld at home!!
I finally resigned to the fact that I actually didn't need to buy anything. Everything I needed was already at home. I crutched my way back to my car and drove to the Wick. I bought some snacks from the Asian grocery store. I think their stuff might be cheaper than the one in the city! This demands investigation.
I went across to the other shopping centre to withdraw some money, and then crutched my way back to my car. It felt good driving again. I swear there's nothing like blasting Eminem in the car and driving. It soothes my mind. But to my surprise I wasn't really driving that fast. I knew I didn't have the proper reflexes, so I was a bit cautious. I was also a bit fearful that my surgeon and/or physio would catch me driving, since I wasn't supposed to. Which made me think - I seem to have this bit of rebellious nature in me. I mean, I was told to use crutches, yet I could be seen walking into the computer store. I'm told not to drive, and here I was driving.
I remembered what Jonathan told me about taking it too fast and ruining the future. It really becomes a mentality. He said it's hard for those who want to rush back to rehab, because they just don't have the patience. But if you're resigned to the fact that it's a slow process, then you'll be more patient.
While I'm here I might as well document the differences in pain I'm currently feeling.
First, there's the actual knee pain. When I trip (like last night, that was a big one) or kick something with my right foot, 10 billion nerves shoot pain from inside knee to brain saying "OUCH!". It's felt at the very heart of the surgery, the core of my knee, where the ligament has been replaced. It is also the bit that hurts when my knee isn't moved enough, or is moved too much. More of this pain is NOT good for my recovery.
Second, there's the pain associated with the wound where the incisions were made. I guess aggravating this just makes me bleed more, but probably doesn't damage the knee per se. Stretching and tripping can damage these wounds.
Third, there seems to be some sort of 'stretch' pain in my hamstring. According to my physio, this is where they took the graft (I didn't think they did because there's no incisions there, but he said they bring it through from the front). If the other two pains didn't exist, this feels like it would definitely stop me from doing any form of running. It prevents me from stretching my leg too far out. Sometimes it feels like it's missing a section there (which may be true) and it makes me wonder how I can return to sport if that part is missing.
Naby
Sometimes I look at my current credit card debt, and wonder how it could be about $1,500 less if I had never gone down the Naby path. Do I regret it? Nope. Why not? Because not only did I enjoy her company, but it was a solution to going mentally insane from the whole Katie thing after it happened. I needed a distraction, and I got it. Plus, I think I may have done something stupid with Karina if I didn't have my Naby experiences on the weekends.
Also, I noticed that during the Naby period, I wasn't as angry as before, or even as often. I don't know why, but anger didn't appeal to me as much, and although I stayed motivated at work, it wasn't really anger. I kinda just mellowed out. Maybe it was all just sexual frustration?
The other thing is, if I start looking at things like that, then it could go on forever, like "if I didn't buy that suit, then I'd be x dollars richer", but life isn't as mathematically simple as that. Perhaps if I didn't spend money on that, it would've been spent elsewhere.
Do I miss Naby? Kinda, but not in a sad, heart breaking way. I guess because all along in the back of my mind it was accepted that it would be temorary, so it didn't hit me as hard when it happened. Sometimes I do wonder if she'll come back, and then I wonder if I'll see her even if she does. I do not intend to be a long time punter.
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