She kept my lolly...
Today was seriously one of the hardest days to work. My mind was split, it was like one half was fighting the other.
I got to work just before 8am, and her friend was already in, but I didn't talk to her. After filling up my water bottle and going to the toilet, I went straight to work. I did a pretty good job of not checking for when she would sign in, I had enough to keep my mind busy.
At 10am we had a meeting with the deputy director. I emailed Karina and asked if she wanted to go together, and she came and collected me and then we went around getting everyone else. The only person who wasn't there was Dugon, cause she was in court.
As we sat around the big tables, I watched as the last person slotted into the last seat. It made me feel like a part of a specialist team where each of us had special powers. I could hear the commentary "and the last piece is in place".
The meeting went ok, probably longer than I had thought. I was hoping he'd say something about our future here, but he didn't. After it finished, Karina, Zena and I hung around a bit and chatted.
When we went back up to our offices, I did more work and waited for Katie and Yoshi to go to lunch so I could eat my instant noodles in peace. They went at around 1pm, and I immediately went to fill my instant noodles up with hot water. I ate it in my room, and then ate my apple while standing and watching the view.
After I finished, I started on a new brief because I wanted to get one more done for the end of the month. I actually got through it pretty quickly, despite the obvious distraction. What was more amazing was that we managed not to cross paths throughout the entire day. I honestly didn't know how I'd react - anger, hostility, friendly?
In the afternoon I went out to do a bit of shopping, buying more instant noodles for the office. There were chocolate bars on sale so I decided to buy one for me and one for Heath. When I went back I gave it to Heath, and he was very thankful, but I bet you he thought it was weird, lol.
A while later he walked across my office with Turk, and said something out loud about me giving him chocolate. I wonder if Katie heard it, and if so, I wonder if she pondered as to why I didn't give her anything.
I noticed that Yoshi left just after 5pm and was expecting Katie to follow. But she didn't. She actually stayed 20 minutes after Yoshi left. Given that for like the last two weeks at least that they've been leaving together, do you think this is a coincidence? Or was she wanting to see if I'd approach?
It didn't matter, because I wasn't going to.
I worked till 7pm, and I must say, I nearly finished the brief in that half day. Wendy and Karina came to say bye, so I was all alone in the office.
I know it's bad, but I went into Katie's room. Curiousity got the better of me and I opend one of her drawers, and I noticed that she had in there the very first lolly I gave to her.
She kept my lolly...
I didn't really know how to feel, or what they meant. But it had helped me decide on what to do if we crossed paths: I'd just give her a weak smile and mosie on.
I went home and on the bus, I was about to explode in tears. I went to the gym. I worked out pretty hard. I was very angry, I felt like punching things, but used that energy towards my reps. After that I went to the seaside near the casino. I wanted to cry but couldn't.
I got to work just before 8am, and her friend was already in, but I didn't talk to her. After filling up my water bottle and going to the toilet, I went straight to work. I did a pretty good job of not checking for when she would sign in, I had enough to keep my mind busy.
At 10am we had a meeting with the deputy director. I emailed Karina and asked if she wanted to go together, and she came and collected me and then we went around getting everyone else. The only person who wasn't there was Dugon, cause she was in court.
As we sat around the big tables, I watched as the last person slotted into the last seat. It made me feel like a part of a specialist team where each of us had special powers. I could hear the commentary "and the last piece is in place".
The meeting went ok, probably longer than I had thought. I was hoping he'd say something about our future here, but he didn't. After it finished, Karina, Zena and I hung around a bit and chatted.
When we went back up to our offices, I did more work and waited for Katie and Yoshi to go to lunch so I could eat my instant noodles in peace. They went at around 1pm, and I immediately went to fill my instant noodles up with hot water. I ate it in my room, and then ate my apple while standing and watching the view.
After I finished, I started on a new brief because I wanted to get one more done for the end of the month. I actually got through it pretty quickly, despite the obvious distraction. What was more amazing was that we managed not to cross paths throughout the entire day. I honestly didn't know how I'd react - anger, hostility, friendly?
In the afternoon I went out to do a bit of shopping, buying more instant noodles for the office. There were chocolate bars on sale so I decided to buy one for me and one for Heath. When I went back I gave it to Heath, and he was very thankful, but I bet you he thought it was weird, lol.
A while later he walked across my office with Turk, and said something out loud about me giving him chocolate. I wonder if Katie heard it, and if so, I wonder if she pondered as to why I didn't give her anything.
I noticed that Yoshi left just after 5pm and was expecting Katie to follow. But she didn't. She actually stayed 20 minutes after Yoshi left. Given that for like the last two weeks at least that they've been leaving together, do you think this is a coincidence? Or was she wanting to see if I'd approach?
It didn't matter, because I wasn't going to.
I worked till 7pm, and I must say, I nearly finished the brief in that half day. Wendy and Karina came to say bye, so I was all alone in the office.
I know it's bad, but I went into Katie's room. Curiousity got the better of me and I opend one of her drawers, and I noticed that she had in there the very first lolly I gave to her.
She kept my lolly...
I didn't really know how to feel, or what they meant. But it had helped me decide on what to do if we crossed paths: I'd just give her a weak smile and mosie on.
I went home and on the bus, I was about to explode in tears. I went to the gym. I worked out pretty hard. I was very angry, I felt like punching things, but used that energy towards my reps. After that I went to the seaside near the casino. I wanted to cry but couldn't.
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