Transformers 2
On Thursday (or maybe eve a litte bit before that) I had sub-consciously decided to smile at that hot para next time we made eye contact. So early on in the day when my client called me over, I walked to the dock and as usual, she sat at the computer staring/looking at me.
I smiled but noticed that her face didn't change, it was still the same stare, and that brought my confidence down IMMEDIATELY. My smile turned into a half-smile which could've passed as a smile to myself or the situation.
Maybe I didn't smile big enough for her. Maybe she didn't think I was smiling at her. I don't know. But I was quite upset after that. I kept thinking how I had just given all my power away, and how it was just another perfect example of someone losing interest as soon as you showed interest in them. And because of all that, I decided that I'd ignore her for the rest of my time here.
But as the day went along, I softened up. I was starting to convince myself that perhaps she really hadn't of seen the smile on your face. Maybe she just didn't know how to react.
There was another time when during a break I was talking to my client, and as I turned to walk away, she was coming from the opposite direction and we met face to face. I smiled and she looked down. Again, it deprived me of confidence, but as the day went on, I started thinking that it may be a good thing. I mean, when you make eye contact with a girl and she looks up, then you have no hope. But if she looks down, maybe it means she's shy.
Sometimes my lack of confidence is due to me underestimating myself. Because I see me, I know me. And there is nothing great, or even good about that. But that's not how she sees it. All she knows is that you're a young lawyer who tends to wear a black tie and white shirt most of the time. She might imagine that you drive a BMW, live by yourself and can look after yourself fairly well, and that you have this great great career and make lots and lots of money. She doesn't know you live with your family and that anyone who comes into your house will smell the cats.
That's one concept I will need to get my head around in the dating game.
Also, as the day went on I got sicker and sicker. My flu was getting worse. By the end of the day I just sat in court looking stoned and totally out of it. When GS and DC left, I had to stay behind to wait for a fax and I just wanted to go to sleep - anywhere.
Picturing the cold cold night at 10pm, I decided not to go to the game. I messaged some of the guys saying I wasn't going to be there.
I caught the train home, had dinner and then went to bed. That was a lot of sleep in one night.
On Friday DC picked me up and we went out to the jails to get a folder from the client. Bumped into Lai at the jails, I introduced him to DC. Even though it's always going to be awkward with Lai around, DC seemed to understand and made polite conversation. I was kinda embarassed when Lai said stuff like how Nom shouldn't have let me go and how I used to work seven days a week. DC made the (reality) point that firms really can't afford to pay people to stay, no matter how good they are.
After the conference, we drove out to see the computer expert. I was kinda mad that we (or the state anyway) were paying for all this, because it was just to help the expert prepare for court seeing that he has never been in court before. Like, if this company gave us a more experienced person we wouldn't have spent this much money.
We were at the conference longer than I had wanted. I was: 1) upset that the expert was getting paid; 2) it was more like we were teaching him than him teaching us; and 3) I was getting a headache.
After that DC dropped me off in the city, I went to the courts to do some work, went home, and I got a bit of rest and then changed to meet Malay so we could head out to the city for Transformers. I had told Scope that we should get the tickets early because it might be full, but he said we'd meet up an hour early to get it. So when Malay and I got there, not to my surprise it was all full. Every single session.
My plan B was to watch it at another cinema, so I called up Scope and Brain who were still at their bus stop and told them to meet us there. We waited for Thai, and told him what had happened. He was pretty upset because nearly everyone other than Brain (who was supposed to get the tickets early) could've gotten the tickets earlier that day. I told him we had no option but to try the other cinema, and Thai was a bit reluctant, but couldn't come up with a better solution. I felt like I had taken charge of this group, suggesting and implementing a change in plans, and that without me they would've just stood around continuously wondering what to do.
So the three of us walked towards the next cinema, and about halfway there Scope calls me and tells us it's full as well. So we ended up meeting there anyway and then had Oporto's for dinner. Malay told me that the guys were going paint balling the next day presumably with Ele and Tracy, something I had no idea about and didn't expect to be told anyway. I do wonder what the others think of my absence, since Bob is obviously playing the ignorant card.
We talked about video games mainly, and at one point Thai asked me why I didn't go to Bob's house warming. I was caught totally off guard and couldn't come up with an excuse, so I just said I didn't feel like going. I wonder if he just asked out of curiousity or if he had suspected I didn't get along with Bob. I don't have a problem telling him, but I don't want to say it if the other person doesn't feel the same way because otherwise it'll just seem like I'm talking bad about him behind his back.
We walked all the way back to the main area of the city and had ice cream on the main street. Thai's wife later joined us because she had come from a work party nearby. Thai said she had just recently been made redundant. I sort of envy his situation because even though he has no money at all and works as a cleaner, he managed to find a girl who loves him who he KNOWS doesn't like him for money.
After we finished Gurang came around from his uni friends or something, and Thai and his wife left and Gurang drove the rest of us home. I could see what Malay meant when he said that Gurang becomes very physical when drunk.
I spent most of yesterday working at home. I had volunteered to be the one to get the tickets for Transformers. My plan was to get the work done, go check out the markets in Glebe, print out my work, then buy the tickets. But it took so much longer than I had expected that by 1:30pm I called Scope up and asked if he could get the tickets.
Later in the afternoon I went out to the shopping centre to do the print outs, and then continued working when I got back home. I seriously worked until it was time to meet Malay, and even then I wasn't completely finished.
I met Malay at my bus stop, we caught the bus out to the city, met up with Scope and Brain and then went to KFC for dinner. It didn't have the same appeal to me anymore, mainly because I now know that I gotta cut down on the junk food because of reduced exercise. Scope and I were rpetty shocked to see the place was leaking water from the ceiling, and I joked how it was such a classy place to take a girl.
Thai met up with us later and then we finally got to see Transformers!!! It was so exciting! When Scope was handing out the tickets to us I felt like a teenager again. I couldn't believe I was so excited to see a movie like this.
We sat in the middle and I was at one end of the group and wondered which stranger would be sitting next to me as I was sure it'd be a full house. A coupel sat down next to me but then were asked to move because they had taken the wrong seats, only to be replaced by another couple. The girl next to me leaned on her boyfriend's shoulder for the whole time, which was pretty unbelievable. I also noticed the couple in front, and wondered (for the 582th time) how such an ugly guy could get a decent looking girl like that.
The good thing about movies like these is that everyone is so excited about it that they're all on their best behaviour. No one talked, no phones went off. It was like respect for the film.
I must say, the movie was HOT! Isabel Lucas was HOT! Even though there was a lot of action and fighting scenes, I couldn't get enough. I was told it was around two hours something, but I wanted more. I felt it getting a bit long but I didn't care. I sat there wondering whether they should've just made it into a four hour movie with a break in between, kinda like half time at a sports event.
The movie was so bloody amazing. I sat there with my eyes glued to the screen the whole friggin' time. It was just so damn cool! I MUST get this on DVD!!!
When the movie finished we stayed behind to see if there was anything after the credits, but there wasn't. I then said "oh so when I stay they don't do it" and the girl next to me looked at me and laughed, even though I had only meant to say it to my group.
I came out of the movie saying it was the best movie ever, even though I knew it wasn't. Fuck that, I'm gonna go see it again.
We wanted to go for coffee but all the places were closing (one big contrast between Australia and HK) so we went to Macca's. After that Malay and Thai went to meet with Gurang to go to his house for video games and I went to the bus stop with Scope and Brain. As we were talking, I remembered how in high school I had actually teased them about how pale they were, and it was then that I appreciated them for being so nice and never hating me for it. I think I was a bit of a bully back then.
I got home at like 1am, did some work, and because my laptop (or Vista) is so slow, I ended up going to sleep at like 2am or something.
Woke up today to a dream of me going to the massage girl's house, and upon opening her door there were two guys, and one of them was putting his shirt on. Maybe it's a hint of things to come if I were to ever pursue that path?
Had to rush to the shopping centre to do some last minute printing because I realised a mistake I made, and then DC picked me up at 9am to take the stuff to the photocopiers. There was a really attractive girl working there, and even though DC was as per his usual funny self, I didn't see any reactions from her. Guess it's different for everyone.
I smiled but noticed that her face didn't change, it was still the same stare, and that brought my confidence down IMMEDIATELY. My smile turned into a half-smile which could've passed as a smile to myself or the situation.
Maybe I didn't smile big enough for her. Maybe she didn't think I was smiling at her. I don't know. But I was quite upset after that. I kept thinking how I had just given all my power away, and how it was just another perfect example of someone losing interest as soon as you showed interest in them. And because of all that, I decided that I'd ignore her for the rest of my time here.
But as the day went along, I softened up. I was starting to convince myself that perhaps she really hadn't of seen the smile on your face. Maybe she just didn't know how to react.
There was another time when during a break I was talking to my client, and as I turned to walk away, she was coming from the opposite direction and we met face to face. I smiled and she looked down. Again, it deprived me of confidence, but as the day went on, I started thinking that it may be a good thing. I mean, when you make eye contact with a girl and she looks up, then you have no hope. But if she looks down, maybe it means she's shy.
Sometimes my lack of confidence is due to me underestimating myself. Because I see me, I know me. And there is nothing great, or even good about that. But that's not how she sees it. All she knows is that you're a young lawyer who tends to wear a black tie and white shirt most of the time. She might imagine that you drive a BMW, live by yourself and can look after yourself fairly well, and that you have this great great career and make lots and lots of money. She doesn't know you live with your family and that anyone who comes into your house will smell the cats.
That's one concept I will need to get my head around in the dating game.
Also, as the day went on I got sicker and sicker. My flu was getting worse. By the end of the day I just sat in court looking stoned and totally out of it. When GS and DC left, I had to stay behind to wait for a fax and I just wanted to go to sleep - anywhere.
Picturing the cold cold night at 10pm, I decided not to go to the game. I messaged some of the guys saying I wasn't going to be there.
I caught the train home, had dinner and then went to bed. That was a lot of sleep in one night.
On Friday DC picked me up and we went out to the jails to get a folder from the client. Bumped into Lai at the jails, I introduced him to DC. Even though it's always going to be awkward with Lai around, DC seemed to understand and made polite conversation. I was kinda embarassed when Lai said stuff like how Nom shouldn't have let me go and how I used to work seven days a week. DC made the (reality) point that firms really can't afford to pay people to stay, no matter how good they are.
After the conference, we drove out to see the computer expert. I was kinda mad that we (or the state anyway) were paying for all this, because it was just to help the expert prepare for court seeing that he has never been in court before. Like, if this company gave us a more experienced person we wouldn't have spent this much money.
We were at the conference longer than I had wanted. I was: 1) upset that the expert was getting paid; 2) it was more like we were teaching him than him teaching us; and 3) I was getting a headache.
After that DC dropped me off in the city, I went to the courts to do some work, went home, and I got a bit of rest and then changed to meet Malay so we could head out to the city for Transformers. I had told Scope that we should get the tickets early because it might be full, but he said we'd meet up an hour early to get it. So when Malay and I got there, not to my surprise it was all full. Every single session.
My plan B was to watch it at another cinema, so I called up Scope and Brain who were still at their bus stop and told them to meet us there. We waited for Thai, and told him what had happened. He was pretty upset because nearly everyone other than Brain (who was supposed to get the tickets early) could've gotten the tickets earlier that day. I told him we had no option but to try the other cinema, and Thai was a bit reluctant, but couldn't come up with a better solution. I felt like I had taken charge of this group, suggesting and implementing a change in plans, and that without me they would've just stood around continuously wondering what to do.
So the three of us walked towards the next cinema, and about halfway there Scope calls me and tells us it's full as well. So we ended up meeting there anyway and then had Oporto's for dinner. Malay told me that the guys were going paint balling the next day presumably with Ele and Tracy, something I had no idea about and didn't expect to be told anyway. I do wonder what the others think of my absence, since Bob is obviously playing the ignorant card.
We talked about video games mainly, and at one point Thai asked me why I didn't go to Bob's house warming. I was caught totally off guard and couldn't come up with an excuse, so I just said I didn't feel like going. I wonder if he just asked out of curiousity or if he had suspected I didn't get along with Bob. I don't have a problem telling him, but I don't want to say it if the other person doesn't feel the same way because otherwise it'll just seem like I'm talking bad about him behind his back.
We walked all the way back to the main area of the city and had ice cream on the main street. Thai's wife later joined us because she had come from a work party nearby. Thai said she had just recently been made redundant. I sort of envy his situation because even though he has no money at all and works as a cleaner, he managed to find a girl who loves him who he KNOWS doesn't like him for money.
After we finished Gurang came around from his uni friends or something, and Thai and his wife left and Gurang drove the rest of us home. I could see what Malay meant when he said that Gurang becomes very physical when drunk.
I spent most of yesterday working at home. I had volunteered to be the one to get the tickets for Transformers. My plan was to get the work done, go check out the markets in Glebe, print out my work, then buy the tickets. But it took so much longer than I had expected that by 1:30pm I called Scope up and asked if he could get the tickets.
Later in the afternoon I went out to the shopping centre to do the print outs, and then continued working when I got back home. I seriously worked until it was time to meet Malay, and even then I wasn't completely finished.
I met Malay at my bus stop, we caught the bus out to the city, met up with Scope and Brain and then went to KFC for dinner. It didn't have the same appeal to me anymore, mainly because I now know that I gotta cut down on the junk food because of reduced exercise. Scope and I were rpetty shocked to see the place was leaking water from the ceiling, and I joked how it was such a classy place to take a girl.
Thai met up with us later and then we finally got to see Transformers!!! It was so exciting! When Scope was handing out the tickets to us I felt like a teenager again. I couldn't believe I was so excited to see a movie like this.
We sat in the middle and I was at one end of the group and wondered which stranger would be sitting next to me as I was sure it'd be a full house. A coupel sat down next to me but then were asked to move because they had taken the wrong seats, only to be replaced by another couple. The girl next to me leaned on her boyfriend's shoulder for the whole time, which was pretty unbelievable. I also noticed the couple in front, and wondered (for the 582th time) how such an ugly guy could get a decent looking girl like that.
The good thing about movies like these is that everyone is so excited about it that they're all on their best behaviour. No one talked, no phones went off. It was like respect for the film.
I must say, the movie was HOT! Isabel Lucas was HOT! Even though there was a lot of action and fighting scenes, I couldn't get enough. I was told it was around two hours something, but I wanted more. I felt it getting a bit long but I didn't care. I sat there wondering whether they should've just made it into a four hour movie with a break in between, kinda like half time at a sports event.
The movie was so bloody amazing. I sat there with my eyes glued to the screen the whole friggin' time. It was just so damn cool! I MUST get this on DVD!!!
When the movie finished we stayed behind to see if there was anything after the credits, but there wasn't. I then said "oh so when I stay they don't do it" and the girl next to me looked at me and laughed, even though I had only meant to say it to my group.
I came out of the movie saying it was the best movie ever, even though I knew it wasn't. Fuck that, I'm gonna go see it again.
We wanted to go for coffee but all the places were closing (one big contrast between Australia and HK) so we went to Macca's. After that Malay and Thai went to meet with Gurang to go to his house for video games and I went to the bus stop with Scope and Brain. As we were talking, I remembered how in high school I had actually teased them about how pale they were, and it was then that I appreciated them for being so nice and never hating me for it. I think I was a bit of a bully back then.
I got home at like 1am, did some work, and because my laptop (or Vista) is so slow, I ended up going to sleep at like 2am or something.
Woke up today to a dream of me going to the massage girl's house, and upon opening her door there were two guys, and one of them was putting his shirt on. Maybe it's a hint of things to come if I were to ever pursue that path?
Had to rush to the shopping centre to do some last minute printing because I realised a mistake I made, and then DC picked me up at 9am to take the stuff to the photocopiers. There was a really attractive girl working there, and even though DC was as per his usual funny self, I didn't see any reactions from her. Guess it's different for everyone.
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