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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

My Insecurity vs Reality?

I decided to keep her hanging overnight, and decided to send the reply today. We had some people come to fix the kitchen tap this morning, so I was waiting for a while to take a shower, which made me a little bit short for time. I ended up getting to our computer expert's place early and just played on my laptop while waiting for him.

After I picked up the drive from him, I walked to the train station and sent the message to her:

Me @ 9:22 - There's a salsa class tomorrow at 730, would you like to go to that? Maybe you can see how bad I am at Salsa first and then how bad I am with other dances later

Needless to say, waiting for her reply killed my mind. It was like I needed every second to check my phone. I got to court after they started, and was kept busy for most of the day because we're into the computer stuff now and it's all too confusing for everyone.

At morning tea, there was still no reply and I just dismissed it as her being busy and wanting to consider it. I managed to check my fb and saw that she had updated her status about an hour ago. So she had time, to update her status, and not respond to me. Well fuck that. I sent another text:

Me @ 11:45 - Forget it, something's come up

I was thinking of just doing the 'forget it' bit, but thought maybe I shouldn't burn all bridges.

Four minutes later, I got a reply.

Her @ 11:49 - Thats ok. Good timing! Just before i say yes. When suits you to do Dance class? You seeM busy:)

And like a hypocrite turtle, I sent one back.

Me @ 11:59 - Well do you want to go next Wednesday?

I sat in court for the rest of the day without receiving a reply, and I subconsciously got more and more pissed off.

What type of sick, twisted bitch is this? Does she get off on all the attention?

It's like when I want her, she turns away, and when I cut things off, she comes running back. Classic human nature in action.

After court, I checked my fb and found that she had sent me a message on it:

Her @ 16:03 - hey [insert name here]!do u want to go to the class on monday or thursday? samba seems interesting too,but let's do salsa first:) my friend said [company] is good, but i didn't find the timetable for salsa at [suburb],have u seen any? which dance studio u mentioned before for wednesday class?
LOL

So this made me think - again.

Was I just being insecure about the whole thing? Or is she actually playing games?

Was she really going to say yes to my initial invitation, or did she only say that because I called it off? What the fuck is going on?

And why does G have to post stupid messages on her fb page? I guess I better forget about him. Shuing said he doesn't think she's interested in him, and it's my photos she keeps commenting on. *shakes head quickly* Can't think too much.

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