Horrible dream
Man, I had such a horrible dream last night. It was so bad it woke me up at 3am.
In the dream I was with the guys from high school and some of the girls were there too, including Ele, and we were just walking as a group through a desserted shopping centre at night. All of a sudden Ele gets Bob to sit down on a bench, and then she gets down on her knees in front of him. She starts pleading and begging for him to take her back, and says that she is no longer with Marcus, her boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend).
She was creating such a scene, and I felt so disgusted, I walked off angrily. I knew that if I did so I'd be making more of a scene out of it, and that everyone would then know that I had a thing for Ele. But I didn't care. I just couldn't bare to watch anymore, I had to get out of there.
I ended up at The Rocks, near the basketball courts but at the bottom of the hill. I stopped there and took out my phone. I had like five missed calls and two messages. I listened to a voice message, which was Bob telling me to come back, because he wasn't interested in Ele at all. Although I didn't check the others, I knew they were in a similar vein from the others.
Even now, when I think of that dream, I feel disgusted. I know it's not real, but it's just hard not to feel that way. Some people reckon dreams can be a prediction of the future. I sometimes like to think of it as a manifestation of my insecurities.
Work today was a little hectic. I had to fix up a lot of the photocopying because GS wanted parts of the document blanked out, the client wanted me to look for stuff on his discs, the secret organisation wanted me to look for a document which they gave us and which they now want back, and then the other side served all this other stuff on us as well, far out.
DC commented on my haircut, even though he saw me yesterday with it. He said something like it was the best haircut in the trial. When Twish came into court, she asked me if I got a haircut, I said yes (what else can I say??), and then she said "you look smart". I thought to myself "so are you saying that before my haircut I didn't look smart?"
I ended up catching the train with Kate, even though I tried to avoid it. I looked ahead to make sure she wasn't there as I kept walking, but it was too late when I spotted her. I just felt like being by myself.
Ele still hasn't messaged me back yet. Maybe she's out of credit, or maybe she changed her mind and couldn't come up with an excuse. Who knows.
I've organised it with Michael L already, so I guess in worst case scenario it'll just be me, him and Eva.
I'm pondering between whether I should just proceed without further asking her as if to teach her a lesson, or call her to make sure what's happening. If I do the former, it might seem a bit slack cause you both wanted to see the movie and now it's kinda like you watching it without her. If I do the latter, at least I've tried.
I don't know.
In the dream I was with the guys from high school and some of the girls were there too, including Ele, and we were just walking as a group through a desserted shopping centre at night. All of a sudden Ele gets Bob to sit down on a bench, and then she gets down on her knees in front of him. She starts pleading and begging for him to take her back, and says that she is no longer with Marcus, her boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend).
She was creating such a scene, and I felt so disgusted, I walked off angrily. I knew that if I did so I'd be making more of a scene out of it, and that everyone would then know that I had a thing for Ele. But I didn't care. I just couldn't bare to watch anymore, I had to get out of there.
I ended up at The Rocks, near the basketball courts but at the bottom of the hill. I stopped there and took out my phone. I had like five missed calls and two messages. I listened to a voice message, which was Bob telling me to come back, because he wasn't interested in Ele at all. Although I didn't check the others, I knew they were in a similar vein from the others.
Even now, when I think of that dream, I feel disgusted. I know it's not real, but it's just hard not to feel that way. Some people reckon dreams can be a prediction of the future. I sometimes like to think of it as a manifestation of my insecurities.
Work today was a little hectic. I had to fix up a lot of the photocopying because GS wanted parts of the document blanked out, the client wanted me to look for stuff on his discs, the secret organisation wanted me to look for a document which they gave us and which they now want back, and then the other side served all this other stuff on us as well, far out.
DC commented on my haircut, even though he saw me yesterday with it. He said something like it was the best haircut in the trial. When Twish came into court, she asked me if I got a haircut, I said yes (what else can I say??), and then she said "you look smart". I thought to myself "so are you saying that before my haircut I didn't look smart?"
I ended up catching the train with Kate, even though I tried to avoid it. I looked ahead to make sure she wasn't there as I kept walking, but it was too late when I spotted her. I just felt like being by myself.
Ele still hasn't messaged me back yet. Maybe she's out of credit, or maybe she changed her mind and couldn't come up with an excuse. Who knows.
I've organised it with Michael L already, so I guess in worst case scenario it'll just be me, him and Eva.
I'm pondering between whether I should just proceed without further asking her as if to teach her a lesson, or call her to make sure what's happening. If I do the former, it might seem a bit slack cause you both wanted to see the movie and now it's kinda like you watching it without her. If I do the latter, at least I've tried.
I don't know.
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